quitting
so i am quitting smoking....
i don't know if i'm quite ready yet
BUT
Chris is going out of town for three days this week, so I won't have anyone to smoke with and then we are going to my mom's on fri-sun so i won't be able to smoke there.
That will give me five days of flat out not smoking, by which point the need will hopefull not be as strong.
REASONS WHY:
1. surgery - smoking weakens your immune system and thickens your blood. if i am really as scared about this as i feel that i am, i should not do things that will increase the likelihood of something going wrong.
2. genetics - i know that i have smaller veins than the average person, doctor's have to take blood samples from me with a baby needle. i also have a family history of heart attacks and strokes. i bitch and complain about my genetic obesity, but do nothing to mitigate my other genetics.
3. I have ASTHMA.
4. Randall - kids should not be around smoke. period.
5. I haven't ever let my mother know I smoke. her mom died of lung cancer. it would tear her to pieces if she ever found out. i don't need to give my mom a reason to be crazy at me.
6. I'm on a health kick. it seems pointless to work out and eat healthy, if i'm poisoning my body every day with cigarettes.
7. it smells bad. really it does. and the people at work get all grossed out when they have to be around me after i smoke....and it makes my car stinky.
8. maybe i won't have a sore throat and runny nose every day if i stop smoking.
Well, i think that about covers it. wish me luck
i don't know if i'm quite ready yet
BUT
Chris is going out of town for three days this week, so I won't have anyone to smoke with and then we are going to my mom's on fri-sun so i won't be able to smoke there.
That will give me five days of flat out not smoking, by which point the need will hopefull not be as strong.
REASONS WHY:
1. surgery - smoking weakens your immune system and thickens your blood. if i am really as scared about this as i feel that i am, i should not do things that will increase the likelihood of something going wrong.
2. genetics - i know that i have smaller veins than the average person, doctor's have to take blood samples from me with a baby needle. i also have a family history of heart attacks and strokes. i bitch and complain about my genetic obesity, but do nothing to mitigate my other genetics.
3. I have ASTHMA.
4. Randall - kids should not be around smoke. period.
5. I haven't ever let my mother know I smoke. her mom died of lung cancer. it would tear her to pieces if she ever found out. i don't need to give my mom a reason to be crazy at me.
6. I'm on a health kick. it seems pointless to work out and eat healthy, if i'm poisoning my body every day with cigarettes.
7. it smells bad. really it does. and the people at work get all grossed out when they have to be around me after i smoke....and it makes my car stinky.
8. maybe i won't have a sore throat and runny nose every day if i stop smoking.
Well, i think that about covers it. wish me luck