The Cure for the Common Crush
Well, i guess at this point it's not really that common of a crush anymore. So i meant to write this the other day while i was at work and i COULDN'T CONCENTRATE ON A DAMN THING!!! and it only got worse after he texted me for no real reason at all. so i don't like this one bit people and i need to stop thinking about him it's not as bad today except i'm worried that we've seen too much of each other this past week, and it might muddy things up a bit. And two hours ago i was thinking if he calls me to go to that party tonight i will not go but now i'm starting to think that i might b/c i want to see him but i really, really shouldn't, and can't we definitely need to cool it off a bit. I keep thinking over this line from (yes--i know i'm a dork) a country song that goes "it's just a crush i'm feeling walking on the ceiling, my whole worlds upside down . . . it's to soon to be to much i'm not ready to call it love . . . " grrr, i hate song headaches, and what's really, really annoying is that i feel like every song i hear can relate to us, it totally blows!!! I've seen him everyday, except sunday, since last thursday--which was our first date. And now i'm all worried that i shouldn't have gone to see a movie w/ him late--really, really late--last night, but he shouldn't have asked me if he didn't want me to come, and i decided to say "screw the rules, i wanna have fun" and i did. So i haven't heard from him today but he knows i'm at work and he's at work, and we have gone a little crazy w/ the text messages lately. Here's the thing i'm worried about and i keep getting this feeling that he's just being nice, and i know ya'll are going to protest but now it's starting to get a little awkward i feel like.
On a slightly more serious note, what i've realized about myself and what i'm afraid of after going through all of this is, if i don't learn to open up now, i'm never going to be able to, and i'm scared shitless! there i admitted it! now what?! oh well, don't listen to me i'm just being overdramatic again. Shit! Shit! Shit! I only got four hours of sleep, i'm tired and cranky and upset and i just want to go home! see this is why you should be careful what you wish for, but it's not supposed to be like this, damnit i wasn't prepared for this! ok, i'm stopping now.
Joey i hope your date goes well, alex u need to ask one of those boys out, and morgan flirt w/ the sandwhich girl and keep an eye on that roommate of yours, that's a little creepy. good bye for now!
SG
On a slightly more serious note, what i've realized about myself and what i'm afraid of after going through all of this is, if i don't learn to open up now, i'm never going to be able to, and i'm scared shitless! there i admitted it! now what?! oh well, don't listen to me i'm just being overdramatic again. Shit! Shit! Shit! I only got four hours of sleep, i'm tired and cranky and upset and i just want to go home! see this is why you should be careful what you wish for, but it's not supposed to be like this, damnit i wasn't prepared for this! ok, i'm stopping now.
Joey i hope your date goes well, alex u need to ask one of those boys out, and morgan flirt w/ the sandwhich girl and keep an eye on that roommate of yours, that's a little creepy. good bye for now!
SG