Merry Fucking Christmas
I would love to go inside a man's head just for one day to see how they think. I'd like to know why they'd think that you, a woman, are willing to fuck them for nothing but orgasms in return.
Here's the situation:
Christmas Eve/Early Christmas morning.
Drunk beyond all recognition (but still able to control
myself)
Cousins,husbands brother and I (and this is even a step
cousin) Ok so it's her husbands brother, I repeat so
you keep it straight. We are sitting at the table,
talking, getting along really well. He's been touching
me for a while (even when my dad was awake), my
shoulder, my back, my knee, my thigh. Dad goes to bed
at around 4am. There are me and the brother sitting
there all alone. we talked for oh a while longer. He
sees my great grandmothers engagement ring and asks if
I am engaged. I say no, I'm single. With in I'd say oh
5 mins of that he's kissing me. First it was a soft
kiss on the lips. Ofcourse I responded. I am liking this
guy at this point. What girl wouldn't. He says to me "I
wasn't sure if you wanted me to" I looked at him like.
DUH you fucking moron of course I did lol. SO he kissed
me again. Well one thing leads to another, hands are
here and there. I stopped him just as his mouth was
leaving mine for other places. I said to him, "nuh uh.
I've had to many one night things I need something more
I need more then just sex. I like you, you are a great
guy but I just can't." He said he understood, that he
has had too many one night things as well. But proceeded
to give me a couple of reasons why it wouldn't work.
BELLS FLYING OFF IN MY HEAD
Ok I like the guy. First guy that's gotten my attention
in months. Sweet as hell and yummy looking. He smokes
but I can get over that. First excuse out of his mouth
for why he didn't think he should start anything with
me. "I don't think she'd approve" talking about my
cousin. I was like, WHAT? Give me a break. I don't
care if she approves or not. If you like someone and
you want to maybe start something then you have to make
sacrifices. Then there was a distance comment and
something else. Totally legit reasons, however lame at
the same time. I am sort of tempted to tell his
brother so he'll get his ass kicked lol
at least he went to bed with blue balls.
and I am learning.
But I am still frustrated with life and how it keeps beating the hell out of me.
Here's the situation:
Christmas Eve/Early Christmas morning.
Drunk beyond all recognition (but still able to control
myself)
Cousins,husbands brother and I (and this is even a step
cousin) Ok so it's her husbands brother, I repeat so
you keep it straight. We are sitting at the table,
talking, getting along really well. He's been touching
me for a while (even when my dad was awake), my
shoulder, my back, my knee, my thigh. Dad goes to bed
at around 4am. There are me and the brother sitting
there all alone. we talked for oh a while longer. He
sees my great grandmothers engagement ring and asks if
I am engaged. I say no, I'm single. With in I'd say oh
5 mins of that he's kissing me. First it was a soft
kiss on the lips. Ofcourse I responded. I am liking this
guy at this point. What girl wouldn't. He says to me "I
wasn't sure if you wanted me to" I looked at him like.
DUH you fucking moron of course I did lol. SO he kissed
me again. Well one thing leads to another, hands are
here and there. I stopped him just as his mouth was
leaving mine for other places. I said to him, "nuh uh.
I've had to many one night things I need something more
I need more then just sex. I like you, you are a great
guy but I just can't." He said he understood, that he
has had too many one night things as well. But proceeded
to give me a couple of reasons why it wouldn't work.
BELLS FLYING OFF IN MY HEAD
Ok I like the guy. First guy that's gotten my attention
in months. Sweet as hell and yummy looking. He smokes
but I can get over that. First excuse out of his mouth
for why he didn't think he should start anything with
me. "I don't think she'd approve" talking about my
cousin. I was like, WHAT? Give me a break. I don't
care if she approves or not. If you like someone and
you want to maybe start something then you have to make
sacrifices. Then there was a distance comment and
something else. Totally legit reasons, however lame at
the same time. I am sort of tempted to tell his
brother so he'll get his ass kicked lol
at least he went to bed with blue balls.
and I am learning.
But I am still frustrated with life and how it keeps beating the hell out of me.