stressed/tired/depressed/ect.
i cannot sleep. i have to get up at 7:00 for work. and its what..LATE! this SUCKS. i have so much on my mind i cant even take it anymore. im not ready for next year. im gunna KILL MYSELF. I have so much work coming up for me this next year. i cant take it. im taking like..the hardest classes that you can take at that school. trying to balance school with friends/work/boyfriend/family/cheerleading/college shit and a whole bunch of other stuffisnt gunna work to well. im not looking forward to next year. not to mention i have finals next week (as well as everyone else), i have to get ready for my 2 week summer and then prepare for Cranbrook. Bens leaving the 17th for 10 days to Isreal, and i wont be able to SEE or TALK to him at all while hes gone. -tear- haley leaves the day after him, wont see her most the summer. im getting stressed about getting my license cuz if i dont take my test im SCREWED bcuz no license=no cheerleading this summer which = BADD... ben and i have been...wierd. we dont really fight .. we just sorta...dont talk. or when we do we both are like really..preoccupied. like we have alot on our minds. i dont want to lose him... i <3 him alot alot. in fact, our six months is on thursday. which is ALSO the last day of school.
On a good note: Cody graduates Boot camp on july 8th-ish. so i get to see him then. and then he comes home for a few weeks. then leaves again -tear-
ugh..so much shit so little time. i feel overwhelmed with shit right now. im going to attempt to go to sleep. probably not going to happen. but whatever.
night
On a good note: Cody graduates Boot camp on july 8th-ish. so i get to see him then. and then he comes home for a few weeks. then leaves again -tear-
ugh..so much shit so little time. i feel overwhelmed with shit right now. im going to attempt to go to sleep. probably not going to happen. but whatever.
night