friendship
Right now, I really miss...everyone. It's not like I feel alone or anything. I have people around me most of the time, actually, but I also have enough time alone that I can go "I remember ___ play in high school. I spent time with ___. How is/are he/she/they?"
This is made worse by my compulsion to go through my pictures of basically my whole life and to watch my video of Jen. The penny pony rides dialogue that can sound...inappropriate when one has just been with the Guild. My bikini monologue. The outdoor club picnic I didn't go to for the obvious reason of not being a member.
Jen's...farewell party. It's so sad. I feel like a bad friend, particularly where she is concerned. My best friend, but when she left, it's like I died. I gave up on most of my friendships and lost touch with her for the most part. Pretty pathetic of me, actually. But the video of the party is amusing.
There's our lamenting the moonlight attack by Nathan and Brian, resulting in 3 injured ladies, 2 of them shot.
The morning conversation as to why they attacked: "They're intimidated by our female bondage." "Did you just say bondage? I think you mean bonding. Bondage is...different." Cosmo writing in my yearbook. Me wearing his jacket. The grill getting lit into huge flames. Playing frisbee. Playing horseshoes, with a poorly faked British accent narrating. Brit and I discussing our various roles in the group. Some of what was said then was harsh/unkind, but I am glad we did it anyhow. Me in Grant's hoodie. I am such a clothes thief!
I'm listening to a bunch of the music I got from Cosmo and I actually like it, even though it is not like what I usually listen to.
This is made worse by my compulsion to go through my pictures of basically my whole life and to watch my video of Jen. The penny pony rides dialogue that can sound...inappropriate when one has just been with the Guild. My bikini monologue. The outdoor club picnic I didn't go to for the obvious reason of not being a member.
Jen's...farewell party. It's so sad. I feel like a bad friend, particularly where she is concerned. My best friend, but when she left, it's like I died. I gave up on most of my friendships and lost touch with her for the most part. Pretty pathetic of me, actually. But the video of the party is amusing.
There's our lamenting the moonlight attack by Nathan and Brian, resulting in 3 injured ladies, 2 of them shot.
The morning conversation as to why they attacked: "They're intimidated by our female bondage." "Did you just say bondage? I think you mean bonding. Bondage is...different." Cosmo writing in my yearbook. Me wearing his jacket. The grill getting lit into huge flames. Playing frisbee. Playing horseshoes, with a poorly faked British accent narrating. Brit and I discussing our various roles in the group. Some of what was said then was harsh/unkind, but I am glad we did it anyhow. Me in Grant's hoodie. I am such a clothes thief!
I'm listening to a bunch of the music I got from Cosmo and I actually like it, even though it is not like what I usually listen to.