Straight up
Journal posting has been quite pointless to me in the past year. I usually used it to write when life was just flowin by, there was no bullshit goin on, and i can jus have a good time rehearsing all the good times i was having. The reason for me not posting, is becuase i feel no need for certain people to enter my personal life, and hear me bitch.
Ive found a pretty good definition of "friends" lately. Those whom you can trust, talk to, understand, and just be comfortable with. Over the past few months, I have gained and lost but I have no regrets. Shit happened, things went down, and i couldnt be any happier with my life right now. All things happen for a reason. People are selfish assholes, people are forgiving saints, people are sorry little bastards, and i just really dont care. IM moving on, IM steppin forward, IM actually going somewhere with my life, and IM not letting certain shit hold me back. With some people, the past can never be changed, and the future... well im not going to let the future even happen.
I have just gotten over the worst summer i have probably ever had. I spent it sulking, depressing, bithing, worrying, wondering, and hurting. And im not gonna be like "its my fault.. blah blah..." becuase honestly, yes, it was a certain someones fault. They can say all they want about me, keep things to themselves, but i really dont care. I didnt do anything that i wanted to do, i worked 50 hours a week, and the vacations i took, well, lets just say i tried to make the best of them. I used to consider myself in the past, one to be the starter of activity. But this summer, i really hoped that fun would jsut fall on my lap... well it didnt. and i hate everyhting i did this summer.
There were different ways to cope about all the thigns that ive went through over the past few months. For a while, i used drining, that was fun. :P For a while, i used running away, that was fun :P For a while i used just ignoring, that however, was not fun. Becuase everything just kept finding me.
One thing that did come out of the summer though was my new car. :)
I still work at Price Rite, couldnt be happier with it. I do mornings, get along with everybody, and i actually grew the balls to bitch at my manager about how much of an asshole he is. How many people at price rite could say that?
School is workin out. I sit there for 8 hours a day, and i commute rather then reside there. I have no problems with driving there 2 days a week, and i feel i am doing much better in it, due to the fact that im screwed if i dont.
Something that i always told myself i need to stop, but i still do religiously, concerts. I have sooooo many lined up for the next 2 months, and im gonna be broke as fuck. For a beautifully constructed list, see Ashleys.
Currently?-- I am actually happy and content with my life. I have concerts on the horizon, i have a set schedule for both school and work, and i have awesome friends who are always there for me, asking me to hang out, making me feel better on a daily basis, I have been hanging out with someone every night that has been making me comfortable, worry free, and good about myself. thanks :)
I do miss a lot of things that ive had with a certain person or 2, but its definetly not worth the bullshit that i had to recieve to try and relive them again.
Stay classy LiveJournal
Ive found a pretty good definition of "friends" lately. Those whom you can trust, talk to, understand, and just be comfortable with. Over the past few months, I have gained and lost but I have no regrets. Shit happened, things went down, and i couldnt be any happier with my life right now. All things happen for a reason. People are selfish assholes, people are forgiving saints, people are sorry little bastards, and i just really dont care. IM moving on, IM steppin forward, IM actually going somewhere with my life, and IM not letting certain shit hold me back. With some people, the past can never be changed, and the future... well im not going to let the future even happen.
I have just gotten over the worst summer i have probably ever had. I spent it sulking, depressing, bithing, worrying, wondering, and hurting. And im not gonna be like "its my fault.. blah blah..." becuase honestly, yes, it was a certain someones fault. They can say all they want about me, keep things to themselves, but i really dont care. I didnt do anything that i wanted to do, i worked 50 hours a week, and the vacations i took, well, lets just say i tried to make the best of them. I used to consider myself in the past, one to be the starter of activity. But this summer, i really hoped that fun would jsut fall on my lap... well it didnt. and i hate everyhting i did this summer.
There were different ways to cope about all the thigns that ive went through over the past few months. For a while, i used drining, that was fun. :P For a while, i used running away, that was fun :P For a while i used just ignoring, that however, was not fun. Becuase everything just kept finding me.
One thing that did come out of the summer though was my new car. :)
I still work at Price Rite, couldnt be happier with it. I do mornings, get along with everybody, and i actually grew the balls to bitch at my manager about how much of an asshole he is. How many people at price rite could say that?
School is workin out. I sit there for 8 hours a day, and i commute rather then reside there. I have no problems with driving there 2 days a week, and i feel i am doing much better in it, due to the fact that im screwed if i dont.
Something that i always told myself i need to stop, but i still do religiously, concerts. I have sooooo many lined up for the next 2 months, and im gonna be broke as fuck. For a beautifully constructed list, see Ashleys.
Currently?-- I am actually happy and content with my life. I have concerts on the horizon, i have a set schedule for both school and work, and i have awesome friends who are always there for me, asking me to hang out, making me feel better on a daily basis, I have been hanging out with someone every night that has been making me comfortable, worry free, and good about myself. thanks :)
I do miss a lot of things that ive had with a certain person or 2, but its definetly not worth the bullshit that i had to recieve to try and relive them again.
Stay classy LiveJournal