??? confused
i'm new to this communtiy i have been reading everyones entries for about a month or so now...im confused i used to not think i had an eating disorder but when i was reading some of the entries they someone was talking about binging on everything u see an not throwing it up...an that describes me very well... in 8th grade i was 5'9 an only weighted 127 thats the lowest i have ever gotten but the in matter of 2 years i am now 169...i try going on diets an fasts all the time but i always go off an bing i just want to know what i need to do..i would die to be super skinny again.. i hate my life right now it seems like no one understands me..every morning i worry about my weight i can never stop thinking about how many calories something is an boys will never like me if i don't lost weight i just need someone that i can talk to an can help me get back on track again like used to be....im just so depressed