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I'm avoiding consciousness, one step at a time.
Monday after work I came clean with my mom that I dropped out of Technical Writing. We deposited my check, and they gave me $60 I wasn't ready for. Afterwards we went to the mall so she could get a pipe for me. It's really cool-looking, and I couldn't help but smoke some tobacco out of it.
Then, we went to the storage place for something I can't remember. Then I realised I should have gotten a pipe screen and 1/2 oz of skullcap, so we went back. JR happened to be working there, and I get the feeling I was bothering him. It's nice that he let my mother and I buy a pipe, it was kind of pushing it to go back, and I could tell that he was annoyed a little. Eh, it's hard to read his emotions sometimes.
I didn't have a lighter, but I really wanted to smoke some skullcap. So, I used paper that was smoldering off of the car lighter to light some. Able to smoke a little, not a lot. Before school.
Got there, sat down in class. Started staring at a blue, spherical clay container. It was nice, and I stared at it for quite some time before Oz asked me if I was stoned. I told her no, and Jim that I had a bowl of skullcap, and asked if he'd be interested in trying Salvia with me.
He said no, because Marijuana's his only thing. I can see wanting to do Marijuana and not Heroin, because Heroin is bad and further "proves" the gateway effect. I can see wanting Marijuana and not mushrooms, because it alters your entire consciousness instead of just your preception of things. But I can't see wanting Marijuana and not Salvia or even Skullcap. There's some things I'd like to make clear with this guy.
So, I contined to sit at my desk, staring the rest of the time at a point. I don't know what it was, I'm thinking that I was drifting toward the hypnogenic (sp) state without falling asleep. Around the desk, outside of my sole point of focus, I could see a very slight halo. When I moved my hand (it took some work) between my eyes and the desk, the parts of my fingers that were inside the borders seemed to turn blue, as long as I wasn't focusing directly on them.
But my main claim to happiness was that the table was breathing. Ever so slightly, I had to focus on a point for several seconds, and if I blinked it would stop. Slowly and extremely slightly, I could see the shape bending. I don't think this was hallucination, just meditative. But I really like skullcap now.
I put in an order for 250 grams of Salvia, which should come in sometime this week or next. It costed a bare $62 with free shipping, so I question the quality. They aren't enhanced leaves, but still. This is over half a pound; in Jane's terms it would cost somewhere in the hundreds. Accordingly, I think the amount you have to take is a lot higher, but reguardless man.
Tonight after getting home, my mom drove us to Walgreens where I finally got Nair and Hair Dye. Dense, random, shit-brown streaks at the part of my hair is annoying, but half as annoying than having fur in my asscrack. That's just gross.
End of Line.
Monday after work I came clean with my mom that I dropped out of Technical Writing. We deposited my check, and they gave me $60 I wasn't ready for. Afterwards we went to the mall so she could get a pipe for me. It's really cool-looking, and I couldn't help but smoke some tobacco out of it.
Then, we went to the storage place for something I can't remember. Then I realised I should have gotten a pipe screen and 1/2 oz of skullcap, so we went back. JR happened to be working there, and I get the feeling I was bothering him. It's nice that he let my mother and I buy a pipe, it was kind of pushing it to go back, and I could tell that he was annoyed a little. Eh, it's hard to read his emotions sometimes.
I didn't have a lighter, but I really wanted to smoke some skullcap. So, I used paper that was smoldering off of the car lighter to light some. Able to smoke a little, not a lot. Before school.
Got there, sat down in class. Started staring at a blue, spherical clay container. It was nice, and I stared at it for quite some time before Oz asked me if I was stoned. I told her no, and Jim that I had a bowl of skullcap, and asked if he'd be interested in trying Salvia with me.
He said no, because Marijuana's his only thing. I can see wanting to do Marijuana and not Heroin, because Heroin is bad and further "proves" the gateway effect. I can see wanting Marijuana and not mushrooms, because it alters your entire consciousness instead of just your preception of things. But I can't see wanting Marijuana and not Salvia or even Skullcap. There's some things I'd like to make clear with this guy.
So, I contined to sit at my desk, staring the rest of the time at a point. I don't know what it was, I'm thinking that I was drifting toward the hypnogenic (sp) state without falling asleep. Around the desk, outside of my sole point of focus, I could see a very slight halo. When I moved my hand (it took some work) between my eyes and the desk, the parts of my fingers that were inside the borders seemed to turn blue, as long as I wasn't focusing directly on them.
But my main claim to happiness was that the table was breathing. Ever so slightly, I had to focus on a point for several seconds, and if I blinked it would stop. Slowly and extremely slightly, I could see the shape bending. I don't think this was hallucination, just meditative. But I really like skullcap now.
I put in an order for 250 grams of Salvia, which should come in sometime this week or next. It costed a bare $62 with free shipping, so I question the quality. They aren't enhanced leaves, but still. This is over half a pound; in Jane's terms it would cost somewhere in the hundreds. Accordingly, I think the amount you have to take is a lot higher, but reguardless man.
Tonight after getting home, my mom drove us to Walgreens where I finally got Nair and Hair Dye. Dense, random, shit-brown streaks at the part of my hair is annoying, but half as annoying than having fur in my asscrack. That's just gross.
End of Line.