you're lying while you confess, keep trying to explain
is it wrong to want Dad to stop worrying about finances, "What I'm doing", and goddamn clean rooms and start worrying about how I'm not happy and just feel like, and am seriously contemplating, driving away and not mentioning a word to him?
is it wrong to want Mom to actually listen when you're trying to explain how you've given up instead of her just nodding her head, leaving without a word or doing crossword puzzles and not listening?
apparently it's easier to criticize than to compliment, which neither tend to do very often or at all.
and I'll stop telling them how I'm doing, and I'll stop being selfish and only worrying about my wellbeing.
what's the point in doing this? I was happy doing drugs and being out at all hours of the nights- I only stopped because I "wanted to better myself", but 7 months into it and I feel worse than before. I know I'll get a lot of shit for saying that, but it's true. Also, I don't want Jeff to leave me (for that reason, at least), so that's a reason not to.
is it wrong to want Mom to actually listen when you're trying to explain how you've given up instead of her just nodding her head, leaving without a word or doing crossword puzzles and not listening?
apparently it's easier to criticize than to compliment, which neither tend to do very often or at all.
and I'll stop telling them how I'm doing, and I'll stop being selfish and only worrying about my wellbeing.
what's the point in doing this? I was happy doing drugs and being out at all hours of the nights- I only stopped because I "wanted to better myself", but 7 months into it and I feel worse than before. I know I'll get a lot of shit for saying that, but it's true. Also, I don't want Jeff to leave me (for that reason, at least), so that's a reason not to.