"you are not who you used to be..."~connor oberst

[rest_in_me]

To be honest sometimes i think i see god more as an escape than anything else. But I know he is so much more. Sometimes I just open my eyes and see him. For a few moments I see him so clearly. Then due to my habit i close my eyes. I wonder if its just because I am afraid of him. It's so weird that the very thing that saves us is the most rejected by us. Were a people who wander a huge desert staring at these hallucinations when the door to a cool house is right in front of us. We thirst for what is fake. We grab on to what we can so the wind doesn't blow us away. We'd eat plastic fruit before we'd turn to God and see and face reality. If being with God is as great as we know and we do know, then what are we waiting for?

I think all the time about how there so much more out there. This whole different life that I am supposed to be living. I get too caught up in my daily habits to let go and go after what is freaking important. Oh man, there's just no slavery that can compare to the slavery of ingrained habits of sin.

When we genuinely believe that inner transformation is God's work and not ours, we can put to rest our passion to set others straight.

um..these are your words not mine...i used to tell you that you were quotable. we used to be friends...now i am quoting you..this is the person i knew..a person who no longer exists really... i am not saying i agree or disagree with these things..but they made me think...hahaha.