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Why is it that damn near everything I try to plan, plot, scheme, accomplish, and make happen always ends in utter failure?
It wouldn't be so bad if things got of the ground, or if my plans failed because they legitimately sucked. What is so infuriating is that shit never gets started. I try to come up with good ideas. I try to involve people and organize. It, usually, is all for naught.
Then, people have the balls to bitch about the fact that they always have to plan shit and make shit happen. Well I FUCKING would do it if people answered my calls or joined in with what I try to do.
As it stands I am going to try my best to create my own amusement, since that is what I have to do. That and remember to get in touch with people I don't see as often.
I am doing a little better with filling my time with decent activities though. Hiking and outdoor photography are fun. I have actually been playing my guitar a bit (trying to get back into it). Work on getting physically fit (I don't care if I am skinny I am NOT fit).
The trick is going to have to be train myself to look forward to these solo activities instead of looking at them as what I do when I can't socialize. If I can just get back into the groove of rally enjoying my alone time then I won't get so frustrated when my social circle falls through.
And of course there is the ever present struggle to take school more seriously (a much greater challenge this semester than it has been for a while).
Maybe, just maybe I need to learn to use this thing more. Writing is venting and it eases the frustration just a little bit. I need to learn that expressing dissatisfaction is ok in moderation. Expressing how I feel has been harder for some time now. Feels like I went too far when I tried to curb my excessive whining.
Oh well, life isn't THAT bad and I know that. Just having an off day and used it to work out some mental irritants.
Edit: I miss the people that I used to talk to a lot. The people I lost touch with here and the ones I never actually knew in person (zach amy, and joe come to mind but there are others). Oh I know we all have our own lives that take us our own ways, but no one is immune to reflecting on things and people we enjoyed that we no longer see much anymore. Such is life, I hope everyone is doing well with their various endeavors and in their daily lives.
It wouldn't be so bad if things got of the ground, or if my plans failed because they legitimately sucked. What is so infuriating is that shit never gets started. I try to come up with good ideas. I try to involve people and organize. It, usually, is all for naught.
Then, people have the balls to bitch about the fact that they always have to plan shit and make shit happen. Well I FUCKING would do it if people answered my calls or joined in with what I try to do.
As it stands I am going to try my best to create my own amusement, since that is what I have to do. That and remember to get in touch with people I don't see as often.
I am doing a little better with filling my time with decent activities though. Hiking and outdoor photography are fun. I have actually been playing my guitar a bit (trying to get back into it). Work on getting physically fit (I don't care if I am skinny I am NOT fit).
The trick is going to have to be train myself to look forward to these solo activities instead of looking at them as what I do when I can't socialize. If I can just get back into the groove of rally enjoying my alone time then I won't get so frustrated when my social circle falls through.
And of course there is the ever present struggle to take school more seriously (a much greater challenge this semester than it has been for a while).
Maybe, just maybe I need to learn to use this thing more. Writing is venting and it eases the frustration just a little bit. I need to learn that expressing dissatisfaction is ok in moderation. Expressing how I feel has been harder for some time now. Feels like I went too far when I tried to curb my excessive whining.
Oh well, life isn't THAT bad and I know that. Just having an off day and used it to work out some mental irritants.
Edit: I miss the people that I used to talk to a lot. The people I lost touch with here and the ones I never actually knew in person (zach amy, and joe come to mind but there are others). Oh I know we all have our own lives that take us our own ways, but no one is immune to reflecting on things and people we enjoyed that we no longer see much anymore. Such is life, I hope everyone is doing well with their various endeavors and in their daily lives.