Oct 24, 2006 11:54
SO full of joy! untill that is the same problems come back up....not today, i wished not today...
today is supposed to be special...
should it be marked as a rejoice, an great achievment, an exciting point to know that love has lasted and hardships overcome?????
or should it be marked as a sad event...that I have been held captive, when one would think that I would simply walk away from my troubles, should it be the mark of my chaining, my capture, my never ending rapture of the destruction and slow deterrioration of me????????
I wont know, I wont know,
or maybe I dont want to know, its my choice in the end, i guess, just as it was in the beginning.
Happy 11th, dear heart, I still find that I somehow love you.