Oct 01, 2006 21:01
I miss my james...cant wait to see him again...
thought the next time I do it will be in heaven
I am still getting over what happend....
i remember he told me to calm down...
I was so stressed, I didnt know how to stop
my ending, then I thought of just his face, relaxed and floated into space...
I remember yesterday we practiced our "marriage kiss"
he was on his knees on my bed and I was standing in front of him
he put a hand on my waist and a hand on my face and he kissed me like he meant it...and i knew...that he meant it...we both meant it.
and those things came back...they rushed into my body like the wind,
I felt every hair stand on end...they flickered and fluttered and flipped
inside me....
do you know what they were....
one person knows...i hope he will be happy to hear...
that once again, I felt butterflies...