New Home for the Month
So I have moved again. I'm at UBC for the month now. This might just be a trend for me for the summer. Heh, go figure. I feel minutely better even if I am at home by myself on a friday night and really no plans for the weekend. Oh wait, apartment hunting and running can count, can't they?!?! Argh.
So I'm about to go on another rant. Writing is how I deal with such things, so either stop reading or deal. Yes, these days I'm a moody bitch. I wish it was easy to stop, but let's face it, I'm not feeling myself. I am now no longer rowing for the entire summer. My summer of rowing is over before it can even begin. I'm out of shape and overweight and to be quite honest, really rather depressed at the moment. I suspect this too shall pass, but gawddammit, it doesn't make today any better knowing that some time in the future things will eventually be better.
Moving was probably the best thing I could do for myself. Whereas I was staying with some rower friends, it wasn't a healthy situation, I just didn't quite live with them so well. In fact, I think we might be from opposite ends of the earth. But that's ok, when I'm not living with them, it's exactly what I want. But it definitely wasn't working for the living situation. So that's over and other things may start to fall into place. I'm also now close to Pacific Spirit Park so I can run and I still have a valid pass for the Coop [UBC gym] so I can do other cardio. I'll be in shape by the end of summer if it kills me. I'm now a Vancouver bike commuter and totally look the part too....weeeee.
Since I'm no longer rowing and I am really broke, I'm seriously considering finding another summer job. If I can just work insane amounts, I might actually feel a little bit better too. That or drink or something. I just don't want time to think. I need to just do. Sometimes it IS what is best for me. Ahh yes, the Type A personality kicking in. I will feel fine in time, it just may take a little while. And a few hundred workouts. So if I do minimum 2/day plus an hour of riding, I might feel better sooner....hey, wait, there's a theory to work with. I like it!
On other random news.....I start my Math 200 class next week. I saw a wicked 2 bd place a 5 min walk from Kits beach and the perfect price. I want it sooooo bad. I hope we get it. I hope so very much. Would be a sweet deal indeed. I have to see more places tomorrow though. Ugh. Fun times. But I think I'm pretty much set on this place. But you can't put all hopes into such a place, chances are we won't get it anyways.
I really want to see Heather. I miss her so much, but she's gone to Saskatchewan. I can't wait for her to get back though, I think I'll visit her at least twice before summer is over. Whistler is damn pretty and I could use a trip out of the city. I could use a hug and long talk from her too. *sigh* However, the very exciting news is that she's going to be in the Lower Mainland come January for school!!! It means I might even get to see her on a regular basis!!! So excited about that!!!
Anyways, I'm still feeling pretty shit. Ranting isn't helping and I still feel like so few people care I'm here that it doesn't matter that I am. All selfish, all probably wrong, but hey, I can feel however I damn well please. I wonder if I can figure out how to set up a DVD on this computer....
So I'm about to go on another rant. Writing is how I deal with such things, so either stop reading or deal. Yes, these days I'm a moody bitch. I wish it was easy to stop, but let's face it, I'm not feeling myself. I am now no longer rowing for the entire summer. My summer of rowing is over before it can even begin. I'm out of shape and overweight and to be quite honest, really rather depressed at the moment. I suspect this too shall pass, but gawddammit, it doesn't make today any better knowing that some time in the future things will eventually be better.
Moving was probably the best thing I could do for myself. Whereas I was staying with some rower friends, it wasn't a healthy situation, I just didn't quite live with them so well. In fact, I think we might be from opposite ends of the earth. But that's ok, when I'm not living with them, it's exactly what I want. But it definitely wasn't working for the living situation. So that's over and other things may start to fall into place. I'm also now close to Pacific Spirit Park so I can run and I still have a valid pass for the Coop [UBC gym] so I can do other cardio. I'll be in shape by the end of summer if it kills me. I'm now a Vancouver bike commuter and totally look the part too....weeeee.
Since I'm no longer rowing and I am really broke, I'm seriously considering finding another summer job. If I can just work insane amounts, I might actually feel a little bit better too. That or drink or something. I just don't want time to think. I need to just do. Sometimes it IS what is best for me. Ahh yes, the Type A personality kicking in. I will feel fine in time, it just may take a little while. And a few hundred workouts. So if I do minimum 2/day plus an hour of riding, I might feel better sooner....hey, wait, there's a theory to work with. I like it!
On other random news.....I start my Math 200 class next week. I saw a wicked 2 bd place a 5 min walk from Kits beach and the perfect price. I want it sooooo bad. I hope we get it. I hope so very much. Would be a sweet deal indeed. I have to see more places tomorrow though. Ugh. Fun times. But I think I'm pretty much set on this place. But you can't put all hopes into such a place, chances are we won't get it anyways.
I really want to see Heather. I miss her so much, but she's gone to Saskatchewan. I can't wait for her to get back though, I think I'll visit her at least twice before summer is over. Whistler is damn pretty and I could use a trip out of the city. I could use a hug and long talk from her too. *sigh* However, the very exciting news is that she's going to be in the Lower Mainland come January for school!!! It means I might even get to see her on a regular basis!!! So excited about that!!!
Anyways, I'm still feeling pretty shit. Ranting isn't helping and I still feel like so few people care I'm here that it doesn't matter that I am. All selfish, all probably wrong, but hey, I can feel however I damn well please. I wonder if I can figure out how to set up a DVD on this computer....