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The new major development is Carrie. Roger met her when he Scott and Matt did some sort of funtion/program. They are a couple now I guess, and that makes me sad/angry because I am selfish andhave not yet learned compassion. Roger has experienced sex before me. Why does this bother me, why can't I be happy for him? I think I answered my question. I am selfish, unlearned in complassion. My veiws have shifted though, and it is because of this or just the fact that I am around people my own age. I'm searching. Searching for this one who will be a part of me. I want to be attatched, and I almost want it ripped from me. So I can feel that deep depression and when I come out of it, I will know imperminance. Its odd to want a life-changing bad thing to happen to you... then again I guess its strange to WANT.
Everything is a distraction from the fact that I am going to die; that you are going to die.
Everything is a distraction from the fact that I am going to die; that you are going to die.