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its coming back, you know.
feeling like my heart will explode.
the structure i took so long to build
collapsing in on itself.
i wish there were someone to save me, or heal me, but i'm always the one to do that.
fuck this. fuck him.
its all ups and downs and at some point i spit up my sanity to watch it hover in midair and then plummet.
i wish i didnt feel. i wish he werent around. i wish sometimes I could claw my heart out, puncture my lungs. drag my fucking face from my skull and get the fuck away from these humans and their self absorbed bullshhit. get away from my own.
I want someone to care, but then again, I fucking don't.
sleep is nice when it isnt full of him.
I need someone to tell me i'm okay. to look me in the eyes. to tell me i'm not crazy. that I'm worth something.
happy fourth of july motherfuckers.
feeling like my heart will explode.
the structure i took so long to build
collapsing in on itself.
i wish there were someone to save me, or heal me, but i'm always the one to do that.
fuck this. fuck him.
its all ups and downs and at some point i spit up my sanity to watch it hover in midair and then plummet.
i wish i didnt feel. i wish he werent around. i wish sometimes I could claw my heart out, puncture my lungs. drag my fucking face from my skull and get the fuck away from these humans and their self absorbed bullshhit. get away from my own.
I want someone to care, but then again, I fucking don't.
sleep is nice when it isnt full of him.
I need someone to tell me i'm okay. to look me in the eyes. to tell me i'm not crazy. that I'm worth something.
happy fourth of july motherfuckers.