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OH MY GOD......I may be getting out of this hell hole of a business soon.Mom wants to start digitizing(making our own machine embroidery patterns) and selling them on the internet.People can sell the most hideous designs for mega-bucks.I mean seriously hideous(lumpy cutesy poo coloring book type designs and nabbed clipart images). She's already looking at buying the Embird program in order to do it. We've all decided we are just too damn tired of picking up after entitled assholes who think they can push us around because we clean for a living.Im sick of being broke,Im sick of being hungry,Im sick of being on pins and needles all the time wondering if someone will pay us in time so that we can pay our bills! I havent been payed in about 6 months,my Dad never even has enough money to give us some for gas,so me and Bre have been really careful about spending any money and have had to make do with about $500 between the two of us .It isnt easy and I don't think Ive ever been this freakin stressed out in my entire life.None of us eat more than once or twice a day and we don't eat much either.I'm always hungry,always growly,always have heartburn from not eating enough and I'm damn sick of it. I want to be able to go places with my friends without worrying if I even have the gas to get there. I want a to be able to buy things again!! A latte,a book,lunch, anything!!!! I hope to god that this embroidery thing takes off and works out! I'd so much rather draw silly designs all day than clean offices at night. Id be able to see my friends again and go hang out with them for more than 5 minutes every couple of months when it's convenient for them.My schedule isnt convenient for anyone as it is.
I just want to have a life again.
Oh geez....mom has decided to stop smoking too.Cold turkey.If I show up at your doorstop scared out of my wits.Let me in.....it means my mom's after me.