I need to marry Ty Pennington...
...because he was the only person to actually make me feel better today. In a day full of frustration, anger and well alot of trash talking, only watching season 1 of Extreme Makeover: Home Edition on DVD made me feel better. After a weird day of work, i had to come home to yucky sloppy joes and a house that smells like dog. Speaking of the dog, she needs to leave ..NOW! Not only that, but they need to leave too. I can't get into my room because of the blow up mattress, i cant get ready in the bathroom because its a mess and they take seven hours to get ready. I can't move, because the dog is just in my face. Not only this, but every time i try to watch something, they take the remote from me and change the channel. Im fucking pissed. and to some of you people reading this, you probably think i'm over reacting but i'm seriously not. If you were here, you'd be pissed too. Its so bad. They weren't home when i got home, so i tried to clean what little room i can walk in. My mom wanted to go take back my comforter and stuff and i thought that was all we were doing but my mom wanted to actually shop. and me shopping when i'm not in a good mood equals unhappy event. Plus, i was informed my sister was wearing one of my shirts, one of my BRAND NEW shirts. Excellent. But i came home, popped Ty in the dvd player and i felt a little better. But what really broke the ice was the quote of the night by none other then the mother herself. Both my sisters and andy were at a mcconahy family reunion and when they came home the follow event happened:
Krysten: So are we going to church tomorrow?
Mom: Yes! I told you this like 5 minutes ago!
Krysten: But its so hot in there. *whispers i haven't gone in like a month*
Mom: Well it's hotter in HELL
i basically lost it. every emotion i was holding inside came out right then and there. I laughed, i cried, i screamed. It was amazing. from then on out, i laughed my anger out. Ty was amazing and he just got funnier and funnier. but then, i put a movie on and five seconds into it, my sister takes the remote and changes the channel. UM HI! i was watching something?!?!
But then again, it kind of put things in perspective for me. I realized being upset about a shirt and shopping and work, isn't nearly as important as the struggles those families had. Seeing them fix these homes in 7 days and giving them just a little bit of hope and a feeling that there is still a little good out here in the world is overwhelming. I would love to do that someday. So thanks Ty.
Even though i realized i shouldn't be so upset, deep down i still am. I'm just so tired of dealing with everything. School is annoying already and i haven't even gone yet, my family is a wreck right now, my dad and i dont talk anymore, friends are fighting, and trying to plan all of these things to do before we all say goodbye is overwhelming. and i don't like to show my feelings in public. I have cried a few times at work because of stress and once at school but usually i wait until im alone to scream, cry, yell or whatever. But this helps a bit.
so i'm probably crazy, but i don't care. I deserve one day where i can flip out. that's all i ask for. every other day, i'll be the ally you know. i promise.
so, May the road rise up to meet you, may the wind be ever at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face and the rain fall softly on your fields. And until we meet again, may God hold you in the hollow of his hand.
AJ
Krysten: So are we going to church tomorrow?
Mom: Yes! I told you this like 5 minutes ago!
Krysten: But its so hot in there. *whispers i haven't gone in like a month*
Mom: Well it's hotter in HELL
i basically lost it. every emotion i was holding inside came out right then and there. I laughed, i cried, i screamed. It was amazing. from then on out, i laughed my anger out. Ty was amazing and he just got funnier and funnier. but then, i put a movie on and five seconds into it, my sister takes the remote and changes the channel. UM HI! i was watching something?!?!
But then again, it kind of put things in perspective for me. I realized being upset about a shirt and shopping and work, isn't nearly as important as the struggles those families had. Seeing them fix these homes in 7 days and giving them just a little bit of hope and a feeling that there is still a little good out here in the world is overwhelming. I would love to do that someday. So thanks Ty.
Even though i realized i shouldn't be so upset, deep down i still am. I'm just so tired of dealing with everything. School is annoying already and i haven't even gone yet, my family is a wreck right now, my dad and i dont talk anymore, friends are fighting, and trying to plan all of these things to do before we all say goodbye is overwhelming. and i don't like to show my feelings in public. I have cried a few times at work because of stress and once at school but usually i wait until im alone to scream, cry, yell or whatever. But this helps a bit.
so i'm probably crazy, but i don't care. I deserve one day where i can flip out. that's all i ask for. every other day, i'll be the ally you know. i promise.
so, May the road rise up to meet you, may the wind be ever at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face and the rain fall softly on your fields. And until we meet again, may God hold you in the hollow of his hand.
AJ