Head Banging

Sep 09, 2006 19:13

Why is everything my fault?

I walk out after being ambushed, and that gives you the right to be mad at me.

But it's okay to hang up on me during phone calls, or not bother calling me at all. It's okay to be pissed at me for three months without telling me why.

And when I post what I'm feeling, as biased and momentary as feelings tend to be, to try and let you know how I feel, and you don't feel it's important enough to respond.

You're mad at me, but you can't tell me what the problem is, you can only bitch about things I've done. I've never been anything but honest with you, why is expecting the same in return suddenly too much to ask?

I've never lied about who I was. I've told you I'm aggressive and obnoxious.

But ultimately, what good is this going to do?

How am I any better complaining about it to an anonymous internet than to your faces?

I just want you to tell me the truth. It won't hurt my feelings. I welcome the criticism. I'm not saying I'm going to change, but at least I'll be more away of my behavior.

Man, this is just getting so ridiculous. I'm tired of talking about this.

Will you just tell me what the problem is so you can get over it?

I realize that is incredibly condescending, but I really am not offended by your opinions by me. I'm interested in hearing them, I think they are important, but they're not going to hurt me. I am fine with all of this. I'm over it because in the grand scheme of things it's not that important. We are different people and I need to stop expecting things out of you just because I give them or because I want them.

I just want it to be done with.

And don't get pissed at me over this. I'm not telling you what to do, I'm not trying to be the leader or the boss or whatever. I'm not criticizing or complaining. I'm just trying to tell you how I feel and what I want:

Either tell me so we can hash it out (most likely to get worse before it gets better), or see it the way I do: the entire situation involves misunderstandings, miscommunication, illogical expectations, and hurt feelings.

What is so hard about water under the bridge?

you're it?

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