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i can't even explain how excited i am to have met sara. she is such a cutie and she's so nice to me and listens to all my problems, but at the same time we can dance like idiots and play neopets together and go exploring in the city. i laugh a lot and feel really calm when i'm spending time with her which is really healthy for me right now. i get that from abby too, so it will be nice when she's back. and this year i'll have two best friends to lean on rather than just loading all my problems onto abby and i think that will help.
i've been hating dave a lot lately. it's not fair to go from being someone's best friend to just dropping off the face of the earth, and i HATE that we were so close and now i have to find out that you're off exploring other countries from my parents. especially when it makes me so angry to think about you that i yell every time they bring you up. it was such a long time ago now but i dont think i'll ever stop being angry until he apologises or explains or something for making me so upset. pretending someone doesnt exist is NOT an effective way of dealing with problems.
i'm worried i might overload myself this fall; i'm going to be working on so many projects and clubs that i feel like i might exhaust myself. but at the same time i'm also worried i'll have free time and i don't really want any of that because that's when i feel the most anxious. my medicine isn't really doing anything yet but fingers crossed that it will soon.
i've been hating dave a lot lately. it's not fair to go from being someone's best friend to just dropping off the face of the earth, and i HATE that we were so close and now i have to find out that you're off exploring other countries from my parents. especially when it makes me so angry to think about you that i yell every time they bring you up. it was such a long time ago now but i dont think i'll ever stop being angry until he apologises or explains or something for making me so upset. pretending someone doesnt exist is NOT an effective way of dealing with problems.
i'm worried i might overload myself this fall; i'm going to be working on so many projects and clubs that i feel like i might exhaust myself. but at the same time i'm also worried i'll have free time and i don't really want any of that because that's when i feel the most anxious. my medicine isn't really doing anything yet but fingers crossed that it will soon.