no reason to live.

[resanutz]

i drank 2 bottles of wine tonight because i thought it would help me forget that i couldn't be with chris. i was wrong. all it did was make chris disappointed in me and make him think i'm completely dependent on him and can't live on my own w/o him there 24/7. i feel like a complete ass. i'd rather him be mad at me than disappointed...it's the worst feeling to have someone you love disappointed in you....i know..

i suck.