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Some days just make you think about whats going on around you. Do you ever stop and leave your life for a minute? Like really step back and watch yourself?
Well I do, maybe I'm just a bigger weirdo then I thought. *shrug* Look, now I'm talking to myself on the internet. Oh well, eh?
It was one of those days today.
Woke up tangled in Chris' sheets at 8:45 and had a bad feeling. Long story short, my car had been towed because the night before there weren't any visitor spots. I pretty much just lost it. I just got paid, I have NO money because it all got sucked out of my account by medicine or sunpass or planet fitness, rent or car insurance or new shorts.. It's crazy. I was already worried about making it finance wise for the next two weeks, but that was too much.
The good news is, I'm the Assistant General Manager of Northgate. Pegasus Connection is now our sister property. After I freaked out I thought "Bitches BETTER let my car go without me paying the $200 I DON'T HAVE." and after a fucking HALF a day and an unfriendly phone call, Jackie drove me out to GOD DAMN FUCKING NOWHERE (aka Bithlow) to get my car, free of charge. And thank GOD because that place has 10 visitor spots and 0 customer service skills. No wonder they don't lease up.
A shiney spot to this morning however, came when I mentioned my run with luck in the past (it was either REALLY good or REALLY bad) and Chris tried to cheer me up. Everything that we've gone through together up to this point was worth it when I heard him say "But maybe your luck is finally changing, because I know mine is." And no one who will read this will quite understand the awesomeness of that statement, but that's ok, because I do.
Our relationship is going really really well. It's interesting, the things that come up, the things that infuriate us and the things we have the most fun doing. But we're really compatable. I know were good for each other. I know things can only get better from here. <#
In other news, I have to go to the doctor because I haven't been feeling well. I don't want to go but I know that I really really must. Uck. I will go this week. I tried to make myself call for an appointment today, but I fooled myself into thinking that I didn't have time. (When I know I really did.)
But I looked at my life today. I saw it. It is work and family and eating and sleeping and Chris and stress and stress and more stress and great friends. It's not so bad, but it's not what I want it to be. I need to change some things but I'm not really sure if that means I should stop holding back from what I really want to do and do the things I know I HAVE to, or that I am on the wrong path entirely. I will have to figure this out.
I ate dinner at my computer today... haven't done that in awhile. It was.. interesting.
I need to get back to photography. I need to get back into the gym. I need to sleep more, or perhaps not at all. Hahaha.
Hope everyone is well.
Well I do, maybe I'm just a bigger weirdo then I thought. *shrug* Look, now I'm talking to myself on the internet. Oh well, eh?
It was one of those days today.
Woke up tangled in Chris' sheets at 8:45 and had a bad feeling. Long story short, my car had been towed because the night before there weren't any visitor spots. I pretty much just lost it. I just got paid, I have NO money because it all got sucked out of my account by medicine or sunpass or planet fitness, rent or car insurance or new shorts.. It's crazy. I was already worried about making it finance wise for the next two weeks, but that was too much.
The good news is, I'm the Assistant General Manager of Northgate. Pegasus Connection is now our sister property. After I freaked out I thought "Bitches BETTER let my car go without me paying the $200 I DON'T HAVE." and after a fucking HALF a day and an unfriendly phone call, Jackie drove me out to GOD DAMN FUCKING NOWHERE (aka Bithlow) to get my car, free of charge. And thank GOD because that place has 10 visitor spots and 0 customer service skills. No wonder they don't lease up.
A shiney spot to this morning however, came when I mentioned my run with luck in the past (it was either REALLY good or REALLY bad) and Chris tried to cheer me up. Everything that we've gone through together up to this point was worth it when I heard him say "But maybe your luck is finally changing, because I know mine is." And no one who will read this will quite understand the awesomeness of that statement, but that's ok, because I do.
Our relationship is going really really well. It's interesting, the things that come up, the things that infuriate us and the things we have the most fun doing. But we're really compatable. I know were good for each other. I know things can only get better from here. <#
In other news, I have to go to the doctor because I haven't been feeling well. I don't want to go but I know that I really really must. Uck. I will go this week. I tried to make myself call for an appointment today, but I fooled myself into thinking that I didn't have time. (When I know I really did.)
But I looked at my life today. I saw it. It is work and family and eating and sleeping and Chris and stress and stress and more stress and great friends. It's not so bad, but it's not what I want it to be. I need to change some things but I'm not really sure if that means I should stop holding back from what I really want to do and do the things I know I HAVE to, or that I am on the wrong path entirely. I will have to figure this out.
I ate dinner at my computer today... haven't done that in awhile. It was.. interesting.
I need to get back to photography. I need to get back into the gym. I need to sleep more, or perhaps not at all. Hahaha.
Hope everyone is well.