here comes the rain again, falling from the stars...
i filled out my housing thing for uf. i'm so excited for college! i think its because i finally know what i'm doing for once. i can't wait to leave. i can finally escape what i've been trying to for the past fifteen years of my life. but i've stuck with it because i want her to be happy. and now that i'm leaving and getting what i've been waiting for, i think she has finally realized that she wants to escape it too. i can only hope and pray for her that she has the will power to do it. i've hated this for so long, i want to see her happy, doing what she wants to be doing, not trying to please someone who doesn't give two shits about me and probably her too. i love her so much and hope she figures this out, even if it has taken this long. in the past few days i have promised myself that when i have kids im just gonna love em to death. and no one will EVER come before them, no matter what. thats how it should be.
im sure anyone reading this doesn't really care but she is finally starting to realize what i have known my entire life and i don't even know what to do. you can let the craziest things in life blind you and never even know it. this is just a lot for me to take in and i don't really know how to deal with it at the moment. i think it makes me happy though.
anyways. we graduate in 102 days! i am so freakin excited! thats 3 months and 13 days! hopefully it will fly by......
gonna free fall out into nothing
gonna leave this world for awhile...
pray for the patel family. i know they are in my thoughts and prayers.