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so i went to college this weekend.
:-) fun
it was also really hitting me that...damn...i'm going to be living there in a few months.
damn.
and just how incredibly scary architecture is.
anytime i tell someone from Tech what my major is they're like...oh...so we won't be seeing you.
i know i'm supposed to be able to do anything i can put my mind to and i know that i'm kickass at drafting...but creativity and problem-solving wise i don't know if i have it in me. like, will i honestly have any raw talent with this?
it's scary as hell.
i feel like, maybe, i'm more in love with the idea of being an architect--the industry itself just makes me think of beauty (working in a beautiful office, designing beautiful buildings)--than the actual reality of what being an architect is.
am i really in love with architecture and buildings, or do i just want what i think is a glamorous job and a hell of a lot of money.
not that money is a bad thing...
and hasn't influenced my decision, or anything.
i realize that i'm not even in college and i'm still very very young and i shouldn't be stressing out about this, but i just hate the idea of dropping out and feeling like a failure.
and i hate suspense and waiting--i want to know everything right now.
i guess i'll just have to get to college and see if its for me.
but the wait itself it going to be terrifying.
:-) fun
it was also really hitting me that...damn...i'm going to be living there in a few months.
damn.
and just how incredibly scary architecture is.
anytime i tell someone from Tech what my major is they're like...oh...so we won't be seeing you.
i know i'm supposed to be able to do anything i can put my mind to and i know that i'm kickass at drafting...but creativity and problem-solving wise i don't know if i have it in me. like, will i honestly have any raw talent with this?
it's scary as hell.
i feel like, maybe, i'm more in love with the idea of being an architect--the industry itself just makes me think of beauty (working in a beautiful office, designing beautiful buildings)--than the actual reality of what being an architect is.
am i really in love with architecture and buildings, or do i just want what i think is a glamorous job and a hell of a lot of money.
not that money is a bad thing...
and hasn't influenced my decision, or anything.
i realize that i'm not even in college and i'm still very very young and i shouldn't be stressing out about this, but i just hate the idea of dropping out and feeling like a failure.
and i hate suspense and waiting--i want to know everything right now.
i guess i'll just have to get to college and see if its for me.
but the wait itself it going to be terrifying.