Yeah so...
So I really really really am not very good with poems...I would like to think god gifted me with a talent of writing, he just didn't give it to me in the form of a poem. I know what I would say and I know how to say it...but thats not why I question it. I question it because what if it's not good enough? and because what if people don't get it and think I'm some crazy chica who is completely nutty. And then there is the problem of someone being offended or hurt by it. I know it happens, it does everytime. But it's out with the old and in with the new because I'm not the girl who runs and hides and I'm not the girl afraid of the world. I might seem to be the girl who thought the world never gave her a chance cause i was...but not anymore. A friend helped me see that...and they don't even know they did. You can think what you want and you can think I'm being ignorant but I'm not I'm being real. So here goes...
Everyone always told me it was forever. They said they would always be here, and while we sometimes disagreed I always knew who I could be. I never really worried about much of anything cause it always seemed to be second rate. I told you everything and kept you close to my heart. The world always revolved around you. Best of friends thats what they call it. There was never you and me, it was always US. You knew everything about me, we finished each others sentances. There was never anything that you couldn't tell me. I sacraficed everything for you to notice me. All I ever wanted was not for you to like me but to love me. You broke my heart and you broke me down. The funny thing is you can't even look me in my face. I'm an invisible wall, you see right through me like I'm nothing. Some figment of a dream you once had. I'm meaningless and nothing. The rest of my world seems to be falling around me. Nothing makes sense anymore. Who do I trust, what is there left? My friends are changing. It's like I'm the one they love to hate. It's all a house of lies, they'd say one thing yet mean another. Maybe It's better this way. Maybe it was my fate to be abandoned by the ones I love so they could bring me to the ones I'm suppose to be with. It's an amazing feeling when the people you never expected to know you are the ones who care the most. Trusting others with new found happiness. This time it'll be real and true. 2 in particular, to the first he thought I always hated him but I really don't. A true friend I never expected to be so true and genuine. The second I couldn't have dreamed more amazing. I know so cleashea, but what can I say. Attracted by his resemblence of the heart breaker, but something more. No split personality and no second guessing, no heart breaking games. Just a true amazing guy. I almost wonder why he'd wanna be near me, he's way to good for me and I don't deserve him. But thats why he's here to show me I am...So one last queston.. Are you sorry for the way you did me and sorry for the things you did? Sorry for the lies and sorry for what you'll never have?
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