"Lonely, In This White Room"
Seether/ Saron Gas "69 Tea"
The past week or so has been very eventful. To tell the complete truth I haven't more depressed in a long time. On one end, things with my dad are calming down, we're finally to a point where there is an understanding abuot how I feel about him and how he feels about me, and it works.
But at home, here, I just feel so out of place. I'm constantly arguing with my mom and brother, and I'm really worried about the results of her surgery, we all are. The doctors want to start a hormone reproduction treatment on her "just in case". That really worries us.
There's so much more to tell, but I can't bring myself to talk about it.
On a brighter side, I've been working avidly on my music, almost obsessively. I'm working on recording a cover of "Jesus Wants Me For A Sunbeam", for no reason in particular, just because it's a good snog and I have fun playing it. I'm doing it on a shitty cassette recorder, but hey, at least it's a solid recording..
I'm very lonely lately.. I can't seem to get ahold of anyone to hang out with or anything. I'm at a point where I just can't talk about things bothering me. I just don't want to. No one has even called with the exception of Jeff, but he always calls. Oh well, life goes on.
Sorry for rambling, just a lot on my mind. Later..
The past week or so has been very eventful. To tell the complete truth I haven't more depressed in a long time. On one end, things with my dad are calming down, we're finally to a point where there is an understanding abuot how I feel about him and how he feels about me, and it works.
But at home, here, I just feel so out of place. I'm constantly arguing with my mom and brother, and I'm really worried about the results of her surgery, we all are. The doctors want to start a hormone reproduction treatment on her "just in case". That really worries us.
There's so much more to tell, but I can't bring myself to talk about it.
On a brighter side, I've been working avidly on my music, almost obsessively. I'm working on recording a cover of "Jesus Wants Me For A Sunbeam", for no reason in particular, just because it's a good snog and I have fun playing it. I'm doing it on a shitty cassette recorder, but hey, at least it's a solid recording..
I'm very lonely lately.. I can't seem to get ahold of anyone to hang out with or anything. I'm at a point where I just can't talk about things bothering me. I just don't want to. No one has even called with the exception of Jeff, but he always calls. Oh well, life goes on.
Sorry for rambling, just a lot on my mind. Later..