"I'm faded, I'm tired, completely uninspired..."
Smile empty soul's "For You"
I don't know how to condone my attitude as of late. I think that I've pissed some people off that I didn't mean to, because I've been jealous. Those of you know that I'm talking to you. I'm sorry, but I can't help the way I feel. I've decided that I am going to let things ride, I guess if I lose what makes me happy then it will happen for a reason. I don't want any conflict with anyone, whether I know them or not, whether I like them or not. I'm at a good point in my life right now, and I will not screw it up again. I refuse to...
On another note, I've tried to be passive, I try not to get involved, but people bring me into these things and suddenly I'm a bad guy. I'm torn between two friends right now because no one can sift through fact and fiction. Why do there have to be so many lies? Do people just not know how to let things go and how to live their own lives?
I feel like screaming... I've told you all, I don't believe anyone in these useless stories, because none of it seems reliable. I don't want to be involved in the 'who kissed who', or 'who did this or that' game. It isn't me. I'm a senior in high school, Ive got the rest of my life to think about. I've got my own problems. I really don't need to get involved in the high school drama. No one needs it. It's fucking pointless. I don't see how one person can cause so many problems. He's far from perfect. Its been proven that he is not a good person to be in a relationship with, so why does everyone keep dragging it all on? Can't you all just let him live his own life? Fuck, half of you are 14 fucking years old! Get over it! He's almost 18, WAY too old for you!
On another hand, for the other friend of mine, why can you not just talk to him about the lies? Is there really a need for a game about it? Do you have to tell him you won't hang out with him until he tells you the truth? JUST ASK HIM! And, how credible are these other friends of yours? you thought the same about Sheridonn, you thought she'd never lie to you, and she did. she lied to us all. What makes you think other people won't lie? Don't be so trusting when it comes to a point where one issue can ruin a great friendship.
Look, I'm going to tell you all now, I'm staying out of this. I don't want it. I will listen to what anyone has to tell me, but I will not repeat anything I hear to anyone, because like I said, I don't want the fucking drama. I'm sorry, I know I sound like the asshole here but oh well. I'm also sorry for spilling it all here, but I needed a place to vent... Later..
I don't know how to condone my attitude as of late. I think that I've pissed some people off that I didn't mean to, because I've been jealous. Those of you know that I'm talking to you. I'm sorry, but I can't help the way I feel. I've decided that I am going to let things ride, I guess if I lose what makes me happy then it will happen for a reason. I don't want any conflict with anyone, whether I know them or not, whether I like them or not. I'm at a good point in my life right now, and I will not screw it up again. I refuse to...
On another note, I've tried to be passive, I try not to get involved, but people bring me into these things and suddenly I'm a bad guy. I'm torn between two friends right now because no one can sift through fact and fiction. Why do there have to be so many lies? Do people just not know how to let things go and how to live their own lives?
I feel like screaming... I've told you all, I don't believe anyone in these useless stories, because none of it seems reliable. I don't want to be involved in the 'who kissed who', or 'who did this or that' game. It isn't me. I'm a senior in high school, Ive got the rest of my life to think about. I've got my own problems. I really don't need to get involved in the high school drama. No one needs it. It's fucking pointless. I don't see how one person can cause so many problems. He's far from perfect. Its been proven that he is not a good person to be in a relationship with, so why does everyone keep dragging it all on? Can't you all just let him live his own life? Fuck, half of you are 14 fucking years old! Get over it! He's almost 18, WAY too old for you!
On another hand, for the other friend of mine, why can you not just talk to him about the lies? Is there really a need for a game about it? Do you have to tell him you won't hang out with him until he tells you the truth? JUST ASK HIM! And, how credible are these other friends of yours? you thought the same about Sheridonn, you thought she'd never lie to you, and she did. she lied to us all. What makes you think other people won't lie? Don't be so trusting when it comes to a point where one issue can ruin a great friendship.
Look, I'm going to tell you all now, I'm staying out of this. I don't want it. I will listen to what anyone has to tell me, but I will not repeat anything I hear to anyone, because like I said, I don't want the fucking drama. I'm sorry, I know I sound like the asshole here but oh well. I'm also sorry for spilling it all here, but I needed a place to vent... Later..