"If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead..."
Alice In Chain's "Nutshell"
Well, I've been out here in Buckeye since Saturday, and it's been one of the most depressing times of my life. I kind of feel like an addict going through withdrawal, I've had really depressive moods and okay moods. The worst was Sunday night, I had an argument with my mom about somethings and got really upset and just broke down. I broke part of my phone when I threw it into the wall, and put another nice little chunk in my guitar when I threw that too.
I've been writing non-stop. I've got a snog in progress that I'm calling "Died," it's basically about feeling worthless, it's heavily influenced by my breakdown. I really want to show it to Bre when it's done, I think it may be something she can relate to really well.
I also recorded an awesome cover of "Something In The Way" from Nirvana, that I did last night when I was in a really solemn mood. The vocals came across really low and pained, my dad said I sounded a lot like Kurt Cobain in the verse. My style is tensing, it's becoming really practiced, which is a good thing because it means I'm getting better. I've also been playing from somewhere around midnight to around 6 am, mainly because I can and I kow I work better on less sleep. Bed at 6, up again at 10, it works, although I feel like shit because of it lol.
So Spring Break has royally sucked aside from the fact that I have a lot of time to dedicate to my music, I just havent been out of the house or seen or talked to anyone in 4 days. It sucks.
Oh well, I'll be home Friday. If anyone wants to hang out, you know what the number is..
Peace, Love, and Halo Horizon,
Austin
Well, I've been out here in Buckeye since Saturday, and it's been one of the most depressing times of my life. I kind of feel like an addict going through withdrawal, I've had really depressive moods and okay moods. The worst was Sunday night, I had an argument with my mom about somethings and got really upset and just broke down. I broke part of my phone when I threw it into the wall, and put another nice little chunk in my guitar when I threw that too.
I've been writing non-stop. I've got a snog in progress that I'm calling "Died," it's basically about feeling worthless, it's heavily influenced by my breakdown. I really want to show it to Bre when it's done, I think it may be something she can relate to really well.
I also recorded an awesome cover of "Something In The Way" from Nirvana, that I did last night when I was in a really solemn mood. The vocals came across really low and pained, my dad said I sounded a lot like Kurt Cobain in the verse. My style is tensing, it's becoming really practiced, which is a good thing because it means I'm getting better. I've also been playing from somewhere around midnight to around 6 am, mainly because I can and I kow I work better on less sleep. Bed at 6, up again at 10, it works, although I feel like shit because of it lol.
So Spring Break has royally sucked aside from the fact that I have a lot of time to dedicate to my music, I just havent been out of the house or seen or talked to anyone in 4 days. It sucks.
Oh well, I'll be home Friday. If anyone wants to hang out, you know what the number is..
Peace, Love, and Halo Horizon,
Austin