Curiouser and curiouser
Firstly, congrats to Maggie(: And well the rest of you guys since I haven't congratulated ALL OF YOU. Oh and to the kids - good luck with As next week and after, it's hard but no harder than that, honest.
I'm feeling rather nostalgic today... Maybe it was the meeting earlier with all you girls but it felt good. Normal. Like we could be in school again and we'd put a lot of things behind us. It has been almost a year since DEP As, and while I'd rather not have the chance to relive it all again, I can't say that I don't miss it. Sometimes I forget you know, the times after when there was work and other people and commitments and no school or rehearsals to bring us together again, or the times when I forgot to call or you forgot to call or we waited for each other to call. Then there were the times we didn't have that much to talk about and instead of feeling quiet we felt awkward. And how could I leave out the things we didn't agree on or the sides we saw of each other we didn't like.
Yeah, I forget. But it feels good forgetting. Happier. So maybe there aren't that many people I care for in this world, but there are those who do...and on good days, I realised there're a lot more of them than I will ever know. I'm sorry if I don't call or drop a message but sometimes I remember, and I guess that in itself is a small quiet tribute to the people who've been in my life.
Somehow I think I've learnt as much out of school as I have in. But it's the people I met in AC and the times we shared that make the times out of AC so much better. And you guys...you're people I trust and love and care for. Fuck the rest really(: It took coming out of school for the intellectual realisation of what's more important to become a truer psychological and emotional one. I don't deny having dreams and aspirations and wanting to do crazy things, but I've figured that they aren't worth it if I've got to pick between them and the life I want to lead. Really, some things aren't worth it. But who am I to decide?
I'm feeling rather nostalgic today... Maybe it was the meeting earlier with all you girls but it felt good. Normal. Like we could be in school again and we'd put a lot of things behind us. It has been almost a year since DEP As, and while I'd rather not have the chance to relive it all again, I can't say that I don't miss it. Sometimes I forget you know, the times after when there was work and other people and commitments and no school or rehearsals to bring us together again, or the times when I forgot to call or you forgot to call or we waited for each other to call. Then there were the times we didn't have that much to talk about and instead of feeling quiet we felt awkward. And how could I leave out the things we didn't agree on or the sides we saw of each other we didn't like.
Yeah, I forget. But it feels good forgetting. Happier. So maybe there aren't that many people I care for in this world, but there are those who do...and on good days, I realised there're a lot more of them than I will ever know. I'm sorry if I don't call or drop a message but sometimes I remember, and I guess that in itself is a small quiet tribute to the people who've been in my life.
Somehow I think I've learnt as much out of school as I have in. But it's the people I met in AC and the times we shared that make the times out of AC so much better. And you guys...you're people I trust and love and care for. Fuck the rest really(: It took coming out of school for the intellectual realisation of what's more important to become a truer psychological and emotional one. I don't deny having dreams and aspirations and wanting to do crazy things, but I've figured that they aren't worth it if I've got to pick between them and the life I want to lead. Really, some things aren't worth it. But who am I to decide?