0015-new/old/present
i often wonder what will happen of me in this life time. What will continue
and what will fade away. What is possible and what is impossible. I have been
reading a great book called 'Bible History. Containing The Most Remarkable Events
Of The Old And The New Testament'. What this is is basicly the bible. Just in a
different form. I came across this book, that may i note is from 1924. My Grandma
had this book buried away in her room. She got it from her sister, that has passed
away. Her sister, my great Aunt got this book in 1928. Inside, there is some words,
that say many things but at the end it says Recieved April 29th, 1928. That is when
this book first got into the hands of a family member. Now, in 2003 my Grandma
passes away and as i am going threw some books my grandma had, i come across this one.
So now i have it. And for that i am very greatfull that i do. I have been finding
great closure in reading this. As it makes me flash back to my child hood times
when i was greatly into church. I remember some of these storys from CCD. I also
find reading it makes me think about my present life and what i could do to make
it better. Better for me and everyone around me. So far this week i have failed very
much so at being a good person. As i realize that, i know that i have to work on that. Among
many other things. It is weird how life works. I was a drunk'. I always wanted to
drink. I loved beer. I could not and would not stop. My 'uncle' died from it and
i still continued drinking. Kelli would say that i would die from it and i would not
stop. Well then i got a Ulcer. The pain i have everyday and every night is from
ripping my body apart. It can get worse but that is only if i make it worse. A ulcer
is not the worse thing that could happen to your body but it is also not the best thing. It can be healed and it will. But due to that ulcer i stopped drinking. Due to that pain in my stomach that i no longer want to feel. The other health problem is not from anything. It just happens (as the pros say it). That is just another strange thing in life. I big reality to stop doing something that
is bad. A sign? A pause for something or just bad luck. Who knows.
Well it is late. I am due for a dream~
and what will fade away. What is possible and what is impossible. I have been
reading a great book called 'Bible History. Containing The Most Remarkable Events
Of The Old And The New Testament'. What this is is basicly the bible. Just in a
different form. I came across this book, that may i note is from 1924. My Grandma
had this book buried away in her room. She got it from her sister, that has passed
away. Her sister, my great Aunt got this book in 1928. Inside, there is some words,
that say many things but at the end it says Recieved April 29th, 1928. That is when
this book first got into the hands of a family member. Now, in 2003 my Grandma
passes away and as i am going threw some books my grandma had, i come across this one.
So now i have it. And for that i am very greatfull that i do. I have been finding
great closure in reading this. As it makes me flash back to my child hood times
when i was greatly into church. I remember some of these storys from CCD. I also
find reading it makes me think about my present life and what i could do to make
it better. Better for me and everyone around me. So far this week i have failed very
much so at being a good person. As i realize that, i know that i have to work on that. Among
many other things. It is weird how life works. I was a drunk'. I always wanted to
drink. I loved beer. I could not and would not stop. My 'uncle' died from it and
i still continued drinking. Kelli would say that i would die from it and i would not
stop. Well then i got a Ulcer. The pain i have everyday and every night is from
ripping my body apart. It can get worse but that is only if i make it worse. A ulcer
is not the worse thing that could happen to your body but it is also not the best thing. It can be healed and it will. But due to that ulcer i stopped drinking. Due to that pain in my stomach that i no longer want to feel. The other health problem is not from anything. It just happens (as the pros say it). That is just another strange thing in life. I big reality to stop doing something that
is bad. A sign? A pause for something or just bad luck. Who knows.
Well it is late. I am due for a dream~