Showcase Blues
I think I'm getting depressed. Been playing the blues a lot lately. Maybe I shouldn't have quit drinking? I guess that's the answer. I blinded myself from depression with alcohol. With hopes that things would turn out alright. I quit drinking and...for a while things felt good. Damn Good. But now I see why I started in the first place. At least I had character when I drank. I need a job. I need a...a girlfriend or something. I need a good friend to kick back and have a budice 22 with. I need...happiness. Jon's got happiness. Mindy is happy. Everyone's happy...D and I...we pretend to be happy. We have good times with the people surrounding us, sure. But I think we're both a little dead on the inside. What is it others have that I don't? I'm lost. I don't have much hopes for a future. Maybe that's why girls avoid me. No one wants to be with a guy who's gonna end up doing construction. I mean, I can still go to technical college. I'll be making alright money. I've just got...nothing. Heh. Eat it up.