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For you all that don't know, I won't be online for a while. My motherboard is shot due to my power supply killing it. I was going to get a motherboard pretty soon, but I decided not to. I'll be heading to So cal for the 12th and 13th of May. I haven't seen Simone in quite a while and I'd liek to change that. It's starting to mess with my moods and make me a big asshole. I've been keeping myself busy with some of my class mates. I've ben playing a lot of poker recently as well. Either way May 15th is our one year anniversary. And I'm going down there to spend some time with her. It also happens to be mother's day weekend. Those that know me well enough, know that I won't be spending that time with my family... lol. but Mone has plans to spend some time with hers. That explains why I'm coming back up to Nor Cal on Saturday night or early Sunday morning (I'm guessign the latter) Either way, I plan to go down there have a good time. Reflect and remind myself why I do the things that I do. This long distance thing is really gtting to me. I was having a discussion with Matt (my old boss) and we were talking about LD relationships. He brought up to me that as long as he's known me or even heard of my relationship history, I've always been in a long distance (or seemingly long distance) relationship. It's true. I see a lot of my buddies (skylar sticks out the most) and they have their perspective women. but I've always been envious of Sky in that manner. I dunno. Just thinking about the fact that I have NO experience living in those circumstances makes me somewhat sad... and even a little scared. I don't even know if I'm a good roommate. All the roommates i've ever had, were "issued" to me. Sometimes, I don't even think I'm a good enough boyfriend. That could be a very bad conbination if things don't go well. But like normal, I'm hoping for the best and prepared for the worst. Hehheh, at least I learned SOMETHING in these 3 years alone. On to less morbid topics...
I think I may be #1 in the class again. The only guy on top didn't do so well today. His average dropped. Mine stayed the same. I don't mean to be a dick or anything, but being competetive is in my nature. I can't help it. Especially, when I'm surrounded by Y chromosomes all day and night (literally).
I hate this feeling. It's not hopelessness because I have very high hopes. I think it's just the waiting ou ttime until I can prove myself... to myself.
I think I may be #1 in the class again. The only guy on top didn't do so well today. His average dropped. Mine stayed the same. I don't mean to be a dick or anything, but being competetive is in my nature. I can't help it. Especially, when I'm surrounded by Y chromosomes all day and night (literally).
I hate this feeling. It's not hopelessness because I have very high hopes. I think it's just the waiting ou ttime until I can prove myself... to myself.