My explanation
I will explain my last blog for those of you who might not know what I was talking about. Last night was the Karaoke, as I said. Well, Shilah showed up there with her new boyfriend, or whatever he is. I am not upset about her being with someone new, in fact I am happy for her. I hope he makes her happy. But I had no idea she was seeing somebody new. She didn't even have the decency to let me know she was with someone. After everything we have been through, I think I deserved at least a little warning. But she didn't give me warning, she just let me see them together. She says she didn't know I was going to be there and she didn't mean to do this to me. But she could have pulled me aside when she saw me there and said something. But she didn't. She could have introduced him to me at the very least. That wouldn't have exactly been pleasant, but it would have been a hell of a lot better than just hanging on him and cuddling with him in front of me. I was even trying to give her a little bit of a benefit of the doubt, that maybe they had JUST gotten together when I thought about it today. Well, tonight I found out from a guy I know in the Theatre Department that he knew they were together. They are not even friends and he knew. So that wasn't the case apparently. When we broke up, she kept saying that she wanted us to still be good friends and be able to talk about anything and all that. But apparently she was lying, cause she didn't even let me know she was seeing someone as a friend, not even as an ex-boyfriend. The worst thing, is that it was like she was trying to hurt me with it. Whenever I happened to glance at them (which I tried not to do) she seemed to always look at me and give me this look like she was trying to rub it in my face. I feel very hurt by this whole thing. Even when Wendy started seeing someone new, she had the heart to tell me so I wouldn't be taken surprise.
There are some things that I just didn't expect Shilah to do to me, and this was one of those things. I guess I didn't know her as well as I thought I did. I seriously doubt our friendship will ever be anywhere near what it was ever again. That makes me sad because I really cared about her, but I guess the feeling wasn't mutual. So, I say RIP to that friendship. I guess it wasn't as important as she tried to make it seem.
There are some things that I just didn't expect Shilah to do to me, and this was one of those things. I guess I didn't know her as well as I thought I did. I seriously doubt our friendship will ever be anywhere near what it was ever again. That makes me sad because I really cared about her, but I guess the feeling wasn't mutual. So, I say RIP to that friendship. I guess it wasn't as important as she tried to make it seem.