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I'm so pissed off but so happy at the same time.
Reason why i'm pissed off:
Jared. Again. Yeah, he did ask me back out. Then broke up with me again. What number time is this? I'm starting to loose track. I'm not 16 years old anymore Jared,i'm not going to let you keep doing this to me. It was fine when we were younger, but I have grown up. I don't know about you, but I have. This is fucking insane. Make up your fucking mind. Stop hurting me. You're not even going to be my friend anymore pretty soon here if you keep doing this shit to me. I told you this was the last time. I can't do it anymore. I can't be hurt again. I don't want to feel like this anymore. WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? Do you understand that I have enough shit to go through? Do you understand that you make me sad more than you make me happy? You don't. You don't fucking understand anything. Or maybe you do, you just don't CARE. You never did. You probably never will. So let me know when/if you grow up and can start making up your mind and be with me without breaking up with me every day. This is bullshit. BULLSHIT.
Reason why i'm happy:
I'm getting a two bedroom apartment with my sister. I was going to try and work something out with Danie and see if we could get a place but that is going to take way too long and I need out NOW. My sister pretty much just has to call the lady and make sure it's still available which she is like %99 sure it is. I'm so fucking excited. I've been waiting for this for a long time. I need to be on my own, independent. It will make me feel alot better about everything that is going on right now. Knowing that I can do my on thing, Alone. If we do get it, which we will, we are moving in on Dec. 1st. :-D That's only like two weeks from now. OMG!!!! Freaking out :-P I can't wait to pack all of my shit. And set it up in my new room and hang out with my sister and her girl friends all the time and be happy and not think about boys that can't make up their damn minds. Way too stressful. So yeah, i'm moving out bitchez!
I guess i'm done here. That sounds good.
Reason why i'm pissed off:
Jared. Again. Yeah, he did ask me back out. Then broke up with me again. What number time is this? I'm starting to loose track. I'm not 16 years old anymore Jared,i'm not going to let you keep doing this to me. It was fine when we were younger, but I have grown up. I don't know about you, but I have. This is fucking insane. Make up your fucking mind. Stop hurting me. You're not even going to be my friend anymore pretty soon here if you keep doing this shit to me. I told you this was the last time. I can't do it anymore. I can't be hurt again. I don't want to feel like this anymore. WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? Do you understand that I have enough shit to go through? Do you understand that you make me sad more than you make me happy? You don't. You don't fucking understand anything. Or maybe you do, you just don't CARE. You never did. You probably never will. So let me know when/if you grow up and can start making up your mind and be with me without breaking up with me every day. This is bullshit. BULLSHIT.
Reason why i'm happy:
I'm getting a two bedroom apartment with my sister. I was going to try and work something out with Danie and see if we could get a place but that is going to take way too long and I need out NOW. My sister pretty much just has to call the lady and make sure it's still available which she is like %99 sure it is. I'm so fucking excited. I've been waiting for this for a long time. I need to be on my own, independent. It will make me feel alot better about everything that is going on right now. Knowing that I can do my on thing, Alone. If we do get it, which we will, we are moving in on Dec. 1st. :-D That's only like two weeks from now. OMG!!!! Freaking out :-P I can't wait to pack all of my shit. And set it up in my new room and hang out with my sister and her girl friends all the time and be happy and not think about boys that can't make up their damn minds. Way too stressful. So yeah, i'm moving out bitchez!
I guess i'm done here. That sounds good.