my fanfics.
new lj: whisperdlullaby
writing community: lullabysmile
completed fiction - listed in chronological order
battles
3,546 words | ryan ross/brendon urie | 14a
they don't look back.
the world is a stage (but the play is badly cast)
11,256 words | tom conrad/spencer smith (spencer smith/jon walker, various others) | nc-17
tom still thinks he's a slut.
white tea and ginger (this is how my body works, baby)
21,756 words | spencer smith/jon walker (ryan ross/brendon urie) | 14a
spencer works at bath & body works, and is in love with one of the regular customers who just so happens
to be his sisters new boyfriend.
every little thing
952 words | brendon urie/ryan ross (ryan ross/alex greenwald) | nc-17
it’s just another fight that brendon cant remember the beginning of.
dirty deeds (done dirt cheap)
written for bandombigbang'09
50,493 words | brendon urie/jon walker (brendon urie/various others) | nc-17
in which brendon was never a part of panic at the disco but a groupie instead.
colour on a black and white canvas
1,220 words | jon walker/brendon urie | nc-17
“it’s fun, isn’t it?” he whispers, voice cold, piercing through the muggy air. “falling but never hitting the ground.”
the science of selling yourself short
11,167 words | spencer smith/jon walker (one-sided: spencer smith/brendon urie) | nc-17
in which jon is brent's hot, older brother, and unknowningly takes spencer's virginity.
love is spelt like your fist
70,270 words ~ 28/28 + Epilogue | brendon urie/ryan ross (jon walker/brendon urie) | nc-17
brendon urie is what some would call 'privileged'. he was born into money, and was graced with good looks.
he has good friends, and an amazing boyfriend that most people only dream of. then Ryan Ross came along,
and made that all change.
silence after this disaster
19,850 words | brendon urie/ryan ross (brendon urie/ofc) | nc-17
brendon's girlfriend dies, and ryan's there to pick up the pieces.
nicotine
4,100 words | brendon urie/ryan ross | 14a
you were the one who saw the real me. the one that saw through my jokes, and the sarcasm. through the cigarettes,
and the alcohol. you saw past my cool, suave, i-don’t-give-a-fuck persona. you saw the real brendon, the one who
wanted to be someone, something, besides the school partier. you made me feel like i was something.
abomination
122,500 words ~ 41/41 + epilogue | brendon urie/ryan ross (jon walker/spencer smith) | nc-17
brendon falls for the pastors son.
you write such pretty words, but lifes no storybook
7,271 words | brendon urie/ryan ross | nc-17
song fic - based off 'lover, i dont have to love' by bright eyes.
you know ryan’s a junkie, and possibly even a whore and somewhere deep down in your conscious you know you
should have never gotten into any of this, that ryan is just bad news. you’re the well-off, band boy from california, who
vowed to never try any type of drug in your life. but, now - now, you’re already so far in, you had been since your eyes
first connected with ryan’s, five hours ago in the smoky, loud club.
maybe
2,248 words | brendon urie/ryan ross (brendon urie/jon walker, jon walker/spencer smith) | 14a
ryan doesn’t deserve you, and you know this. you know he deserves better than you as he whispers into your skin,
his hot, sticky breath stinging your pale skin.
these sheets tell of regret
5,207 words | brendon urie/ryan ross | 14a
it’s not like we’re friends anymore. we’re not best friends. we’re not anything. that got ruined 93 days ago from the
unnecessary amount of alcohol and teenage boy hormones.
crazy/beautiful
64,100 words ~ 21/21 + epilogue | brendon urie/ryan ross (ryan ross/various others) | nc-17
the classic high school cliche, in which ryan's the school slut and brendon's the popular trackstar that saves him.
based off the movie with the same title.
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tbc/inprogress
five years
2/5 | brendon urie/ryan ross | nc-17
five years in ryan and brendon's relationship
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others
Ryden Pic Spam
90+ photos
* i only own the plots and a few of the characters i've written about. i definitely don't in any way own or know any of the boys from panic or other bands, and i also dont, in anyway, think or wish these stories were true.
writing community: lullabysmile
completed fiction - listed in chronological order
battles
3,546 words | ryan ross/brendon urie | 14a
they don't look back.
the world is a stage (but the play is badly cast)
11,256 words | tom conrad/spencer smith (spencer smith/jon walker, various others) | nc-17
tom still thinks he's a slut.
white tea and ginger (this is how my body works, baby)
21,756 words | spencer smith/jon walker (ryan ross/brendon urie) | 14a
spencer works at bath & body works, and is in love with one of the regular customers who just so happens
to be his sisters new boyfriend.
every little thing
952 words | brendon urie/ryan ross (ryan ross/alex greenwald) | nc-17
it’s just another fight that brendon cant remember the beginning of.
dirty deeds (done dirt cheap)
written for bandombigbang'09
50,493 words | brendon urie/jon walker (brendon urie/various others) | nc-17
in which brendon was never a part of panic at the disco but a groupie instead.
colour on a black and white canvas
1,220 words | jon walker/brendon urie | nc-17
“it’s fun, isn’t it?” he whispers, voice cold, piercing through the muggy air. “falling but never hitting the ground.”
the science of selling yourself short
11,167 words | spencer smith/jon walker (one-sided: spencer smith/brendon urie) | nc-17
in which jon is brent's hot, older brother, and unknowningly takes spencer's virginity.
love is spelt like your fist
70,270 words ~ 28/28 + Epilogue | brendon urie/ryan ross (jon walker/brendon urie) | nc-17
brendon urie is what some would call 'privileged'. he was born into money, and was graced with good looks.
he has good friends, and an amazing boyfriend that most people only dream of. then Ryan Ross came along,
and made that all change.
silence after this disaster
19,850 words | brendon urie/ryan ross (brendon urie/ofc) | nc-17
brendon's girlfriend dies, and ryan's there to pick up the pieces.
nicotine
4,100 words | brendon urie/ryan ross | 14a
you were the one who saw the real me. the one that saw through my jokes, and the sarcasm. through the cigarettes,
and the alcohol. you saw past my cool, suave, i-don’t-give-a-fuck persona. you saw the real brendon, the one who
wanted to be someone, something, besides the school partier. you made me feel like i was something.
abomination
122,500 words ~ 41/41 + epilogue | brendon urie/ryan ross (jon walker/spencer smith) | nc-17
brendon falls for the pastors son.
you write such pretty words, but lifes no storybook
7,271 words | brendon urie/ryan ross | nc-17
song fic - based off 'lover, i dont have to love' by bright eyes.
you know ryan’s a junkie, and possibly even a whore and somewhere deep down in your conscious you know you
should have never gotten into any of this, that ryan is just bad news. you’re the well-off, band boy from california, who
vowed to never try any type of drug in your life. but, now - now, you’re already so far in, you had been since your eyes
first connected with ryan’s, five hours ago in the smoky, loud club.
maybe
2,248 words | brendon urie/ryan ross (brendon urie/jon walker, jon walker/spencer smith) | 14a
ryan doesn’t deserve you, and you know this. you know he deserves better than you as he whispers into your skin,
his hot, sticky breath stinging your pale skin.
these sheets tell of regret
5,207 words | brendon urie/ryan ross | 14a
it’s not like we’re friends anymore. we’re not best friends. we’re not anything. that got ruined 93 days ago from the
unnecessary amount of alcohol and teenage boy hormones.
crazy/beautiful
64,100 words ~ 21/21 + epilogue | brendon urie/ryan ross (ryan ross/various others) | nc-17
the classic high school cliche, in which ryan's the school slut and brendon's the popular trackstar that saves him.
based off the movie with the same title.
_________________________________________________________________
tbc/inprogress
five years
2/5 | brendon urie/ryan ross | nc-17
five years in ryan and brendon's relationship
_________________________________________________________________
others
Ryden Pic Spam
90+ photos
* i only own the plots and a few of the characters i've written about. i definitely don't in any way own or know any of the boys from panic or other bands, and i also dont, in anyway, think or wish these stories were true.