oh geez...
i'm so emo but i don't care.
+things i hate sooo much+
+liers
+FRIENDS
+people
+my hair
+my body
+people that dont pick up there cell
+MY BROTHER
so basically im pretty upset right now, but for no apparent reason. i hate how people tell you "we'll hang out tomorrow, i'll call you" and they never do. i dont even have anymore cigarettes my sister said she was going to go buy me some later when she isn't so lazy.
i wonder why people say "life is beautiful" when it's really not. just makes me people hate themselves. not all of them but most of them. i dont think my life is beautiful and if there really is a god out there then why doesnt he help me make it "beautiful?" ... i don't know.
all of this stuff im saying right now.. i'm just talking out of my ass because i feel really bad. i dont have friends to hang out with anymore. i'm a loser and a loner but i don't know why. the people that i consider my friends only talk to me when they need money just because they know my dad gives me as much money as i want. it's not right because for one minute i could've sworn we were all best friends and the next i hear all this shit talking about me about things i supposedly said.
and you know what, i'm actually happy i'm a loser and a loner because that way i don't have to deal with peoples bullshit anymore. i'll be drama free. i like it this way, so what if the only thing i do during the day is shower, smoke, read books, and go online. it's my daily like and as a matter of fact i like it, because it doesnt involve people.
i don't even think i'll be going back to upland next year. i really dont give 3 fucks about anyone at that school. i'd rather stay at hillside where i don't feel obligated to make "new friends." the only reason i'll be there is to make my 230 credits and graduate. then i could just go to beauty school finish it and move so far away from this city that people wont even remember me, they'll think i'm dead.
well that all. i let all my feelings out... for now.
<3
+things i hate sooo much+
+liers
+FRIENDS
+people
+my hair
+my body
+people that dont pick up there cell
+MY BROTHER
so basically im pretty upset right now, but for no apparent reason. i hate how people tell you "we'll hang out tomorrow, i'll call you" and they never do. i dont even have anymore cigarettes my sister said she was going to go buy me some later when she isn't so lazy.
i wonder why people say "life is beautiful" when it's really not. just makes me people hate themselves. not all of them but most of them. i dont think my life is beautiful and if there really is a god out there then why doesnt he help me make it "beautiful?" ... i don't know.
all of this stuff im saying right now.. i'm just talking out of my ass because i feel really bad. i dont have friends to hang out with anymore. i'm a loser and a loner but i don't know why. the people that i consider my friends only talk to me when they need money just because they know my dad gives me as much money as i want. it's not right because for one minute i could've sworn we were all best friends and the next i hear all this shit talking about me about things i supposedly said.
and you know what, i'm actually happy i'm a loser and a loner because that way i don't have to deal with peoples bullshit anymore. i'll be drama free. i like it this way, so what if the only thing i do during the day is shower, smoke, read books, and go online. it's my daily like and as a matter of fact i like it, because it doesnt involve people.
i don't even think i'll be going back to upland next year. i really dont give 3 fucks about anyone at that school. i'd rather stay at hillside where i don't feel obligated to make "new friends." the only reason i'll be there is to make my 230 credits and graduate. then i could just go to beauty school finish it and move so far away from this city that people wont even remember me, they'll think i'm dead.
well that all. i let all my feelings out... for now.
<3