music
since i am sick and all i have been listening to a lot of music lately (like really listening)
i have found soo many songs that just fit my emotions and thoughts lately .. its amazing
sometimes, i wish that i could just be a freshman again and restart.. not that i regret a damn thing i have done.. cuz i have learned from every thing i have done. be it a mistake or success. however, i just feel like i am losing touch with the drive i had to not have any drama. i lasted thru the whole first year being single and fabulous engraved in my mind. i seemed to have less stress then. i wish i could go back to that. every day that i wake up, i realize i am getting better at it. maybe its cuz i dont have my girls with me. no matter what, one of them was there for me and distracted me from my painful thoughts... and they always had the right advice. i miss them most dearly
best advice i have ever received:
"chris, you have so many fabulous people in your life. why focus on the one that causes you pain?"
and from typing this, i seemed to have strengthened my wall to block emotions flowing in and out of me..
YAY success of the day or may be.. wreck of the day either one, im going somewhere in my life. which is what i need
i have found soo many songs that just fit my emotions and thoughts lately .. its amazing
sometimes, i wish that i could just be a freshman again and restart.. not that i regret a damn thing i have done.. cuz i have learned from every thing i have done. be it a mistake or success. however, i just feel like i am losing touch with the drive i had to not have any drama. i lasted thru the whole first year being single and fabulous engraved in my mind. i seemed to have less stress then. i wish i could go back to that. every day that i wake up, i realize i am getting better at it. maybe its cuz i dont have my girls with me. no matter what, one of them was there for me and distracted me from my painful thoughts... and they always had the right advice. i miss them most dearly
best advice i have ever received:
"chris, you have so many fabulous people in your life. why focus on the one that causes you pain?"
and from typing this, i seemed to have strengthened my wall to block emotions flowing in and out of me..
YAY success of the day or may be.. wreck of the day either one, im going somewhere in my life. which is what i need