the relationship between avalanches and snowflakes
I usually have a couple of contemplative days over new year to be totally self-absorbed, go sit by the beach, take long walks and figure out the impossible knots in my head. But events kinda usurped habit…. Like a big ball rolling down the hill that you keep tacking bits onto, increasing its momentum until it’s in some state of unstoppable freefall.
Days used to be a nice hazy blur, crawl out of bed, go to class “or not”, bum around, kopi, cycle here and there. Conversation abstract, problems largely emotional, about simple transient things. Now transmogrified into an endless stack of meetings, transit, meetings, about things that seem somewhat important, email marked urgent, endless streams of bills and notices informing you of this and that.
Maybe that’s called growing up. Learning to juggle. I’m certainly not alone, so many friends… their 20 hr days, the blackberries, spread out around the globe, charging full steam ahead towards …..
Hmmm towards what exactly ?
We once made a promise, and I’m sure we meant it with utmost sincerity when it was said back when we were in sec4 that come new years eve 2000, no matter what we were doing, we would meet at the helipad off the breakwater in Tanjong Rhu, the few of us, best friends and watch the sun rise on the new millennia… but I was on duty in NS, some were overseas etc etc …
Circumstance is the final arbiter of life.
Ok I’m rambling, but yeah, 2007 no resolutions, no goals, no destination… I’ll sort out the mess in 2008 ….so yeah let the wind blow.
Days used to be a nice hazy blur, crawl out of bed, go to class “or not”, bum around, kopi, cycle here and there. Conversation abstract, problems largely emotional, about simple transient things. Now transmogrified into an endless stack of meetings, transit, meetings, about things that seem somewhat important, email marked urgent, endless streams of bills and notices informing you of this and that.
Maybe that’s called growing up. Learning to juggle. I’m certainly not alone, so many friends… their 20 hr days, the blackberries, spread out around the globe, charging full steam ahead towards …..
Hmmm towards what exactly ?
We once made a promise, and I’m sure we meant it with utmost sincerity when it was said back when we were in sec4 that come new years eve 2000, no matter what we were doing, we would meet at the helipad off the breakwater in Tanjong Rhu, the few of us, best friends and watch the sun rise on the new millennia… but I was on duty in NS, some were overseas etc etc …
Circumstance is the final arbiter of life.
Ok I’m rambling, but yeah, 2007 no resolutions, no goals, no destination… I’ll sort out the mess in 2008 ….so yeah let the wind blow.