gavin degraw- tonight would be an optimum time to call..
i have the mean reds and the blues today is not a good day... so my cousin hates me cause apparently we didnt clean up last weekend. i am quite sorry i thought we did. she probably hates me to for the face that some kind i didnt even know broke her bubbler... my aunt hates me now cause my cousin told, and im sure that means my other cousin hates me too.
i went to taft school today. i like kids from high school they make me smile. we embaressed frank. then i embrassed myself when i danced/humped nick and the whole hotchkiss team ( coaches included) saw. they laughed. apparently they dont get out much... oh well doesnt phase me!
i saw shane- but i didnt "see' shane... meaning we didnt talk. i dunno man, it just so different and i don't feel like anything could ever be the same. i mean you were everything i ever asked you to be? everything remember that rainbow journal entry? you were everything-it made me fall for you and i love you. i just wish you still loved me. i mean i know you kissed another girl and it wasnt even that you did it i mean it hurts and hurt a lot but you didnt even think it was anything. you can't tell a girl you love her and kissed another in the same sentance. you don't even care anymore I HATE THAT. i know i miss a lot of things between us, i miss this summer, i miss us just being us, but i know that will never ever ever happen again. too much has changed, you've changed to much. you can't just pick up like things before. it doesnt work like that, but what the fuck man, what ever happened to being my friend? for so long you were too good you know like i mean you were still scummy but you were so good, you understood like no one else did. if anything was ever wrong you were the one i could run to- but now if i jogged ran sprinted briskly walked to you- you'd just shove it in my face. maybe its me, what's so wrong with me that it wasn't good enough for you? i hate that we ever got complicated that the whole world finally got to us, with you i felt invincible from everything that ever happened before, now i feel like you pushed me out the door nude and the whole world can see me. you know you knew everything too, you know i know told you and you are so selfish for being like this. you knew that boys have come in and out of my life like nothing and i didn't need another one. i hate this all i want to do is call you on the phone and talk to you but i get so frustrated and mad and i dont knowwwwwwwwww i just dont know. take me in your arms and make it all better like you could before? thats all i want you to do ya know hold me and make it all go away. i need you but i want you to have the balls to tell me that you can't be what i need.
i went to taft school today. i like kids from high school they make me smile. we embaressed frank. then i embrassed myself when i danced/humped nick and the whole hotchkiss team ( coaches included) saw. they laughed. apparently they dont get out much... oh well doesnt phase me!
i saw shane- but i didnt "see' shane... meaning we didnt talk. i dunno man, it just so different and i don't feel like anything could ever be the same. i mean you were everything i ever asked you to be? everything remember that rainbow journal entry? you were everything-it made me fall for you and i love you. i just wish you still loved me. i mean i know you kissed another girl and it wasnt even that you did it i mean it hurts and hurt a lot but you didnt even think it was anything. you can't tell a girl you love her and kissed another in the same sentance. you don't even care anymore I HATE THAT. i know i miss a lot of things between us, i miss this summer, i miss us just being us, but i know that will never ever ever happen again. too much has changed, you've changed to much. you can't just pick up like things before. it doesnt work like that, but what the fuck man, what ever happened to being my friend? for so long you were too good you know like i mean you were still scummy but you were so good, you understood like no one else did. if anything was ever wrong you were the one i could run to- but now if i jogged ran sprinted briskly walked to you- you'd just shove it in my face. maybe its me, what's so wrong with me that it wasn't good enough for you? i hate that we ever got complicated that the whole world finally got to us, with you i felt invincible from everything that ever happened before, now i feel like you pushed me out the door nude and the whole world can see me. you know you knew everything too, you know i know told you and you are so selfish for being like this. you knew that boys have come in and out of my life like nothing and i didn't need another one. i hate this all i want to do is call you on the phone and talk to you but i get so frustrated and mad and i dont knowwwwwwwwww i just dont know. take me in your arms and make it all better like you could before? thats all i want you to do ya know hold me and make it all go away. i need you but i want you to have the balls to tell me that you can't be what i need.