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i haven't updated in a really long time and well hell who can blame me? a lot has happened but i still don't think i wanna talk about it... my life is just at a stand still...
this summer... this summer was supposed to be the best summer of our lives... i'm sure it will be, but man why do things happen when they do. a part of me wants this summer to rush by( i know it will) because i'm excited to go to college. i'm excited to meet new people, learn new things and well not have to answer to my parents everyday... even though i know i'll miss the old people, miss the old things and miss my parents... it's just that other things that i don't want to be in my life anymore... are still here and still haunt me in ways..and i know going away won't change any of that... but it will.. time changes everything..i have no emotional feelings towards d. any more. physical at times. emotional no way because he=scum. i have a confession - i like to be wanted- and if someone doesn't want me then i don't want them... well yea i do- because i like challenges and i'm too stupid to realize and let go when something is bad for me. is it bad to say i miss being with someone, i miss having an ultimate friend... i don't even remember what its like anymore... i just miss having someone..my head is itchy. i dunno all these things go through my head and i don't know what to do with them anymore....
i think dave gave me his conjuctivitis... damn yo david daigle
till we meet again...
this summer... this summer was supposed to be the best summer of our lives... i'm sure it will be, but man why do things happen when they do. a part of me wants this summer to rush by( i know it will) because i'm excited to go to college. i'm excited to meet new people, learn new things and well not have to answer to my parents everyday... even though i know i'll miss the old people, miss the old things and miss my parents... it's just that other things that i don't want to be in my life anymore... are still here and still haunt me in ways..and i know going away won't change any of that... but it will.. time changes everything..i have no emotional feelings towards d. any more. physical at times. emotional no way because he=scum. i have a confession - i like to be wanted- and if someone doesn't want me then i don't want them... well yea i do- because i like challenges and i'm too stupid to realize and let go when something is bad for me. is it bad to say i miss being with someone, i miss having an ultimate friend... i don't even remember what its like anymore... i just miss having someone..my head is itchy. i dunno all these things go through my head and i don't know what to do with them anymore....
i think dave gave me his conjuctivitis... damn yo david daigle
till we meet again...