A Million Miles Away
Its almost midnight...i feel like crap. My body is so tired and I just feel so worn out. Meh...I kinda do want to go out tonight, but I think that it would be a not-so-good idea. Last night was a total eye opener for me. I was such a fool...I could feel so many emotions last night, not just my own, but it seemed I could feel what everyone else around me was feeling...maybe that was the alcohol? But I couldn't take it anymore so I left the party to make a phone call to someone who I thought could help calm me down. I "came to" waaaay at the end of the street, on the ground with my cell phone open and vibrating in my open palm. Hazy hazy hazy...my friend Evan found me and the others just blew right by me...I guess they were very unhappy with me at that time :( But I do understand that it was very selfish and reckless of me to just walk away from the party without telling anyone what i was doing or where I was going...I was...like I said feeling overwhelmed with emotion. Anyway...car ride...hazy hazy hazy...I think i was at sandy's for a split second then we were at Justins. Then I was at Matt VanHorns...i don't really remember how I got there, well I drove apparently, but i dont remember doing it. When i got there, Matt, Josh, and I just all fell asleep in matts bed, three drunk messes....and yes I do remember bawling my eyes out in a taco bell drive through...not one of my finer moments, but at least it was something real.
Well I'm off to bed now...I hope some sleep will make me feel better in the morning. I feel completely...blagh...I feel like I've lost.
Tomorrow...(or should I say later today) is a new day. Come what may.
Well I'm off to bed now...I hope some sleep will make me feel better in the morning. I feel completely...blagh...I feel like I've lost.
Tomorrow...(or should I say later today) is a new day. Come what may.