"time flies time dies"
so yea i'm sure everyone by now knows that my weekend and this week was and has not exactly been fun. meagan and i were unfortuate to witness my cat getting hit by a car last thursday. i put her down saturday morning and up until monday i really didnt have time to let it sink in. but now it's hit like a huge wave crashing down on me. and ive noticed that it feels really weird without her cuz she was like everywhere i was around here. i think she thought she was like my mother or something, lol. shes not there to walk me to the bus stop or pick me up when we get home, or sleep on my head at night. kinda sux, and whats worse is that i think she might have felt neglected because of the dog. though she did manage to make friends w/ bear before she died. god she was a good cat and she didnt deserve to die like that. i'll miss her, spent a good 12 years of my life with her. damn she was old, lol. but yea school sux i wish they didnt give us all these projects and tests and quizzes all at once. and my social situation isnt too glamorous either, so many ppl troubles. i might as well just isolate myself. idk who to trust anymore, really. i've decided to move back up into my sister's room, idk what promted it, but i am at some point. hopefully i will b able to paint over the butterflies....butterflies.....*shudders* i wish life would let up already, i want the dark cloud above me to go away. ppl r stupid, did anyone else besides me and kris hear about the idiot who was threatend w/ a gun over the new tickle me elmo doll? i hate ppl i really do, and yet do i really hate, idk it just feels like its more anger than dislike. idk. i just dont understand y ppl have to be so hatful, stupid and selfish. eh thats just how the world works i guess. not like i dont contribute, i can b quite the bitch and judgemental. ugh so not having fun, gotta go finish lagace's hw ttyl i guess
I want to paint my face
And pretend that I am someone else
Sometimes I get so fed up
I don't even want to look at myself
But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I hate the way you look at me I have to say
I wish I could start over
I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
You might think it's easy being me
You just stand still, look pretty
Sometimes I find myself shaking
In the middle of the night
And then it hits me and I can't
Even believe this is my life
But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I wish that everyone would go and shut their mouths
I'm not strong enough to deal with it
I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
You might think it's easy being me
You just stand still, look pretty
You never give up
I can't believe anything you say
And it must be my luck
'Cause no one else gets treated this way
And I wanna know
What goes on in that head of yours
Yeah, I wanna know
'Cause I don't think I can take much more
Rain
You must be sick or something
I can't take another day
Rain
Is falling down
But will the sun come out again?
I never speak up
I just try and stay out of the way
But I must have messed up
'Cause that's all that I hear you say
And I wanna know
What on earth makes you act like this
Yeah, I wanna know
'Cause I don't think I can take this shit
Sun come out
You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair you know
To just keep me hangin' 'round
You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't want to see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown
[Chorus]
And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine
Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go
You can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
Really get it over with
And just let me move on
Don't concern yourself
With this mess you've left for me
I can clean it up, you see
Just as long as you're gone
[Chorus]
You not making up your mind
Is killing me and wasting time
I need so much more than that
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
[Chorus]
Leave the pieces when you go
Oh, yeah
Leave the pieces when you go
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Leave thepieces when you go
Without you, the ground thaws
the rain falls
the grass grows
Without you, the seeds root
the flowers bloom
the children play
The stars gleam
the poets dream
the eagles fly
without you
The Earth turns
the sun burns
but I die, without you
Without you, the breeze warms
the girl smiles
the cloud moves
Without you, the tides change
the boys run
the oceans crash
The crowds roar
the days soar
the babies cry
without you
The moon glows
the river flows
but I die without you
The world revives
colors renew
but I know blue
only blue
lonely blue
Without you
Without you, the hand gropes
the ear hears
the pulse beats
Without you, the eyes gaze
the legs walk
the lungs breathe
The mind churns
the heart yearns
the tears dry without you
Life goes on
but I'm gone
'cause I die, without you
without you
without you
without you.....
I want to paint my face
And pretend that I am someone else
Sometimes I get so fed up
I don't even want to look at myself
But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I hate the way you look at me I have to say
I wish I could start over
I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
You might think it's easy being me
You just stand still, look pretty
Sometimes I find myself shaking
In the middle of the night
And then it hits me and I can't
Even believe this is my life
But people have problems that are worse than mine
I don't want you to think I'm complaining all the time
And I wish that everyone would go and shut their mouths
I'm not strong enough to deal with it
I am slowly falling apart
I wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
You might think it's easy being me
You just stand still, look pretty
You never give up
I can't believe anything you say
And it must be my luck
'Cause no one else gets treated this way
And I wanna know
What goes on in that head of yours
Yeah, I wanna know
'Cause I don't think I can take much more
Rain
You must be sick or something
I can't take another day
Rain
Is falling down
But will the sun come out again?
I never speak up
I just try and stay out of the way
But I must have messed up
'Cause that's all that I hear you say
And I wanna know
What on earth makes you act like this
Yeah, I wanna know
'Cause I don't think I can take this shit
Sun come out
You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair you know
To just keep me hangin' 'round
You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't want to see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown
[Chorus]
And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine
Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go
You can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
Really get it over with
And just let me move on
Don't concern yourself
With this mess you've left for me
I can clean it up, you see
Just as long as you're gone
[Chorus]
You not making up your mind
Is killing me and wasting time
I need so much more than that
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
[Chorus]
Leave the pieces when you go
Oh, yeah
Leave the pieces when you go
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Leave thepieces when you go
Without you, the ground thaws
the rain falls
the grass grows
Without you, the seeds root
the flowers bloom
the children play
The stars gleam
the poets dream
the eagles fly
without you
The Earth turns
the sun burns
but I die, without you
Without you, the breeze warms
the girl smiles
the cloud moves
Without you, the tides change
the boys run
the oceans crash
The crowds roar
the days soar
the babies cry
without you
The moon glows
the river flows
but I die without you
The world revives
colors renew
but I know blue
only blue
lonely blue
Without you
Without you, the hand gropes
the ear hears
the pulse beats
Without you, the eyes gaze
the legs walk
the lungs breathe
The mind churns
the heart yearns
the tears dry without you
Life goes on
but I'm gone
'cause I die, without you
without you
without you
without you.....