Topic 137
I can't say I've ever had a blackout that was THAT bad. I mean, my alchohal tolerance is pretty high. But, does it count that there are nights that I wish I'd gotten grand stinking drunk, at least to take the edge off the pain?
Of course, there have been quite a few nights like that. The day I found out I had HIV, I drank pretty much all night long trying to forget, and yet, I woke up with a pounding headache that only reminded me even more of what had happened. Or, anytime I was...with...a man, who was only out to please himself. So many nights...before I joined Life Support, that is. Then things started to look up.
I remember this one time, I was walking out on the streets, all alone, coming home from a friends place, after dark. In drag. VERY bad idea. Let's just say, I met up with some guys who weren't exactly thrilled with my wardrobe, even though, I know I looked good. I forget how big those heels were, but after they'd had a little fun, I managed to get away and I ran all the way home. I took a quick drink, brushed my teeth and got straight into bed, trying to forget all about it.
I woke up, memory still there, of course. It was awful, and I hated it, but you have to put it past you. Forget regret. I went to Life Support, and it eased the pain. Sort of like an alchohal, but so much better.
So, no. I haven't had a night like that, and thinking back? I'm glad of it.
Muse: Angel Dumott Schunard
Fandom: RENT (Mic. Movies)
Word Count: 275
Angel: *kidnaps Chase, James, Mark, etc* Ahahaha I win