being yourself...
everyone tells you to be yourself. really that is all you ever hear. how can you be yourself and do whta you think is right, when you don't even know what that is? im so frustrated here, no privacy at all, it's like i am in prison or something. i constantly have to put up a front, and i am getting ready to put up the biggest front of my life, and it is not easy. no decision has been made yet, but i feel i fail somebody no matter what. people say to do what i want, but i dont know what i want. that was the whole purpose of the self identification thing, but it seemed to make things worse. so i think i will just stop trying, nothing seems to work anyway, i fail at everything, including being honest about who i may be.