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I'm sick and tired of it.
I care too fucking much and for what?
To get nothing in fucking return?
It seems like everytime I become good friends with someone,
or become closer to people in westhill,
it just turns to fucking crap.
Somehow all the stupid drama comes fucking around,
and I try to help,
because supposedly that's what friends do,
but all just backfires right in my fucking face.
So much for making new friends in high school,
i'm fucking sick of it.
No more drama,
No more trying to help,
and no more caring about if someone is okay or not.
Because they would never think of doing anything for me, at all.
So I'm sorry for caring and if that annoys you,
I'm sorry for stoping to ask if you were okay,
I'm sorry for making you go see the nurse when you couldn't fucking breathe,
and I'm sorry for trying to stop you from walking outside in 14 degree weather
for over an hour and a half.
God just thinking about what fucking happened today
makes me want to throw up. If you wanna go kill Dan for cheating on you, go ahead Yannette, but don't come crying to me when you're in jail.
EDIT
It's funny how an hour after writing that Tatiana im's me.
tati x0o: hey sarah
dehbrownllama: hey :-)
tati x0o: i just wanted to say thank you for caring about me so much
tati x0o: you're a really good friend
tati x0o: and im sorry if i dont show my appreciation a lot
dehbrownllama: nahh, i was being annoying
dehbrownllama: but i can't tell you how much i needed that though
dehbrownllama: thank you
tati x0o: no you werent
dehbrownllama: lol
tati x0o: i just dont like lectures
tati x0o: lol
dehbrownllama: i'll keep that in mind
tati x0o: but i noticed how much you really cared on wednsday and how you're always being nice to me even when im stubborn or being a bitch
dehbrownllama: what are friends for?
tati x0o: thank you
tati x0o: and thanks for feeding me
dehbrownllama: lol anytime
dehbrownllama: it makes me happy to see you happy
tati x0o: mateo says thank you too for looking out for me aswell even when he's a dick/jerk/asshole
dehbrownllama: haha tell mateo anytime
dehbrownllama: is he there?
tati x0o: yeah
dehbrownllama: HI MATEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-)
dehbrownllama: think he saw that?
tati x0o: yeah lol kk well we're going to watch a movie now so i'll talk to you later .. but thank you again.. and im being really sincere
tati x0o: =]
dehbrownllama: of course, and thanks for telling me all this, today was horrible and you just made my day
tati x0o: oh im sorry .. tell me about it later k ?
dehbrownllama: yeap :-) both of you have fun
dehbrownllama: but not toooo much fun ;-)
tati x0o: thanks
tati x0o: lol
tati x0o: byeee
dehbrownllama: bye bye
Maybe everything will turn out okay.
And maybe I'll still be able to care,
and know it's not in vain,
and that I'm not wasting my time.
It's worth it.
I care too fucking much and for what?
To get nothing in fucking return?
It seems like everytime I become good friends with someone,
or become closer to people in westhill,
it just turns to fucking crap.
Somehow all the stupid drama comes fucking around,
and I try to help,
because supposedly that's what friends do,
but all just backfires right in my fucking face.
So much for making new friends in high school,
i'm fucking sick of it.
No more drama,
No more trying to help,
and no more caring about if someone is okay or not.
Because they would never think of doing anything for me, at all.
So I'm sorry for caring and if that annoys you,
I'm sorry for stoping to ask if you were okay,
I'm sorry for making you go see the nurse when you couldn't fucking breathe,
and I'm sorry for trying to stop you from walking outside in 14 degree weather
for over an hour and a half.
God just thinking about what fucking happened today
makes me want to throw up. If you wanna go kill Dan for cheating on you, go ahead Yannette, but don't come crying to me when you're in jail.
EDIT
It's funny how an hour after writing that Tatiana im's me.
tati x0o: hey sarah
dehbrownllama: hey :-)
tati x0o: i just wanted to say thank you for caring about me so much
tati x0o: you're a really good friend
tati x0o: and im sorry if i dont show my appreciation a lot
dehbrownllama: nahh, i was being annoying
dehbrownllama: but i can't tell you how much i needed that though
dehbrownllama: thank you
tati x0o: no you werent
dehbrownllama: lol
tati x0o: i just dont like lectures
tati x0o: lol
dehbrownllama: i'll keep that in mind
tati x0o: but i noticed how much you really cared on wednsday and how you're always being nice to me even when im stubborn or being a bitch
dehbrownllama: what are friends for?
tati x0o: thank you
tati x0o: and thanks for feeding me
dehbrownllama: lol anytime
dehbrownllama: it makes me happy to see you happy
tati x0o: mateo says thank you too for looking out for me aswell even when he's a dick/jerk/asshole
dehbrownllama: haha tell mateo anytime
dehbrownllama: is he there?
tati x0o: yeah
dehbrownllama: HI MATEO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :-)
dehbrownllama: think he saw that?
tati x0o: yeah lol kk well we're going to watch a movie now so i'll talk to you later .. but thank you again.. and im being really sincere
tati x0o: =]
dehbrownllama: of course, and thanks for telling me all this, today was horrible and you just made my day
tati x0o: oh im sorry .. tell me about it later k ?
dehbrownllama: yeap :-) both of you have fun
dehbrownllama: but not toooo much fun ;-)
tati x0o: thanks
tati x0o: lol
tati x0o: byeee
dehbrownllama: bye bye
Maybe everything will turn out okay.
And maybe I'll still be able to care,
and know it's not in vain,
and that I'm not wasting my time.
It's worth it.