No more half measures
If I were to run from the truth right now,
if I were to lose to reality right now,
what would be left for me?
I'm almost always scared of the yet to be unlocked future and when I'm not scared, I am content, which I've always found lethal, so when I felt my very flesh shivering in fear, my existence racked by a magnitude of urgency so powerful I had to stop everything I was doing to hug myself in attempt to regain composure, I was beyond thrilled. It was the only thing I could do to stop myself from bolting out the door.
I was standing in the middle of a cyclone made of fear, uncertainty, dejection... and feeling alive, smiling in the face of what could very well be the bane of my existence, reaching out to get swept away in that pernicious ride as I realize that where I am, the game I've been playing, and the risks I've been taking are all so lacking.
if I were to lose to reality right now,
what would be left for me?
I'm almost always scared of the yet to be unlocked future and when I'm not scared, I am content, which I've always found lethal, so when I felt my very flesh shivering in fear, my existence racked by a magnitude of urgency so powerful I had to stop everything I was doing to hug myself in attempt to regain composure, I was beyond thrilled. It was the only thing I could do to stop myself from bolting out the door.
I was standing in the middle of a cyclone made of fear, uncertainty, dejection... and feeling alive, smiling in the face of what could very well be the bane of my existence, reaching out to get swept away in that pernicious ride as I realize that where I am, the game I've been playing, and the risks I've been taking are all so lacking.