always with the dilemmas
*sigh* i don't know what i should do. i haven't seen avery for a while. i kinda forgot the last time we chilled. well what day it was anyways....
well i thought maybe seeing as it was friday today, maybe he'd stop by and suprise me at work. well needless to say he didn't, which is fine but i guess after he got off work he went to visit davey at his work. he works at subway just like 10 minutes away from my work. i found that out cause davey came in my work and we were talkin and i said maybe you could chill with avery, but he said that avery stopped by there. it's cool and all, i know that he doesn't get to see davey that much, but i thought it would be kinda nice for him to come suprise me at work.
before i found that out i was just depressed. so much i broke down while i stocked the cooler. one being my job has stressed me out beyond belief, two i've got this weird pain in between my ribs where my boob is (i push where it hurts and it hurts worse), three i can barely be with avery cause of our jobs, stupid womanly pms bullshit, and people just pissing me off left and right cause they suck at life.
then hearing that from davey. just made me more frustrated. it's bad enough i can't spend time with him because of our stupid opposite work schedules.
i don't know. i want to tell him how i feel, but i don't want to cause an argument. i hate fighting and i don't want to do that with avery, it destroys relationships i think. it's not like it's really a huge deal, i just need to be cheered up even a little.
i do love him more than anyone in the entire world. he's the greatest person to come into my life and make me so happy and i'd be more than happy to share the rest of my life with him. don't get me wrong i love my friends to death too and i couldn't live without them. id go insane. i just feel kinda empty i guess.
especially today.
ugh, my teeth hurt.
well i thought maybe seeing as it was friday today, maybe he'd stop by and suprise me at work. well needless to say he didn't, which is fine but i guess after he got off work he went to visit davey at his work. he works at subway just like 10 minutes away from my work. i found that out cause davey came in my work and we were talkin and i said maybe you could chill with avery, but he said that avery stopped by there. it's cool and all, i know that he doesn't get to see davey that much, but i thought it would be kinda nice for him to come suprise me at work.
before i found that out i was just depressed. so much i broke down while i stocked the cooler. one being my job has stressed me out beyond belief, two i've got this weird pain in between my ribs where my boob is (i push where it hurts and it hurts worse), three i can barely be with avery cause of our jobs, stupid womanly pms bullshit, and people just pissing me off left and right cause they suck at life.
then hearing that from davey. just made me more frustrated. it's bad enough i can't spend time with him because of our stupid opposite work schedules.
i don't know. i want to tell him how i feel, but i don't want to cause an argument. i hate fighting and i don't want to do that with avery, it destroys relationships i think. it's not like it's really a huge deal, i just need to be cheered up even a little.
i do love him more than anyone in the entire world. he's the greatest person to come into my life and make me so happy and i'd be more than happy to share the rest of my life with him. don't get me wrong i love my friends to death too and i couldn't live without them. id go insane. i just feel kinda empty i guess.
especially today.
ugh, my teeth hurt.