love yourself; always.
As you grow older you learn more things about life, yourself, your emotions.... you're taught how to understand and feel. But sometimes there will be things you will never understand and that's okay.
I've thought I was in love before, but haven't we all? Being with Jason taught me more about my life, myself, my emotions... he taught me how to understand and how to feel. Two nights ago he said things to me I thought I'd never hear from any human being. Things that should have hurt me more than anything. Right now I'm sitting here calm and relaxed.... terrified of what's to come next. Why do I not hate him after what he's done? Why couldn't I give him up so long ago... why did I always come running back? Why can't I just be upset with him when I should be? I'm not angry and I'm not going to fall down. I have a lot of questions to ask, some that may never be answered.
You know, I never expected anything out of him. But I am thankful for everything that he has given me. At first I tried my best to keep my distance, not to let him in, I didn't want him to know anything about me. I was there, I listened, I gave him my love. I tried so hard to run. This feeling was new... I've never known the difference between needing and wanting. Right now, I have everything in my life that I need. I'm secure and I guess that's why I'm not so upset.
Jason was everything I wanted and a little more. He treated me far greater than I ever expected. I tried so hard to find every reason not to be in love, I've never felt so connected to some one in my life. Any personality flaw that I had came out and it shined as bright as it could have. He accepted me for who I was though, he understood it would take time for me to learn how to control my emotions; after all we'll never stop growing as people.
I don't believe you'll ever truly know yourself or the things that you will do. Because it's so impossible to know who you will meet in your future and what events will play a major role. As you go on through life you experience things and adapt to those situations. They way you handle things defines who you are but it'll never define your potential or your will to change. If you believe in yourself though, if you have faith, and you realize your mistakes you can take control of your life and accept who you are. You have to love yourself before you can love any one else.
And I've learned to love myself.
I've thought I was in love before, but haven't we all? Being with Jason taught me more about my life, myself, my emotions... he taught me how to understand and how to feel. Two nights ago he said things to me I thought I'd never hear from any human being. Things that should have hurt me more than anything. Right now I'm sitting here calm and relaxed.... terrified of what's to come next. Why do I not hate him after what he's done? Why couldn't I give him up so long ago... why did I always come running back? Why can't I just be upset with him when I should be? I'm not angry and I'm not going to fall down. I have a lot of questions to ask, some that may never be answered.
You know, I never expected anything out of him. But I am thankful for everything that he has given me. At first I tried my best to keep my distance, not to let him in, I didn't want him to know anything about me. I was there, I listened, I gave him my love. I tried so hard to run. This feeling was new... I've never known the difference between needing and wanting. Right now, I have everything in my life that I need. I'm secure and I guess that's why I'm not so upset.
Jason was everything I wanted and a little more. He treated me far greater than I ever expected. I tried so hard to find every reason not to be in love, I've never felt so connected to some one in my life. Any personality flaw that I had came out and it shined as bright as it could have. He accepted me for who I was though, he understood it would take time for me to learn how to control my emotions; after all we'll never stop growing as people.
I don't believe you'll ever truly know yourself or the things that you will do. Because it's so impossible to know who you will meet in your future and what events will play a major role. As you go on through life you experience things and adapt to those situations. They way you handle things defines who you are but it'll never define your potential or your will to change. If you believe in yourself though, if you have faith, and you realize your mistakes you can take control of your life and accept who you are. You have to love yourself before you can love any one else.
And I've learned to love myself.