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Seriously...WTF did I do to piss karma off?
I'm so fucking done with all of this bullshit. I've worked over 5 weeks straight working 2 jobs, no day off and I can still pay MY bills, and now we're covering yours? Then I have to cook and clean for you? I'm not your fucking maid, mother or wife. Get off your ass and contribute to this household and/or pay the bills. Did you know that when you get 3 shut off notices, they cut off your power? Yeah, I knew that, but apparently you thought by leaving them in a pile, unopened, they would just pay themselves. Hey guess what asshole... they cut the power! Where the fuck is your money going, and if your paying someone elses bills, maybe you should go fucking live with them! And now you screw me over (once again) with the car? First I don't have the jeep any more because of you, then you get me a pos that should not be on the road, then you let my registration expire because I was "trying" to buy a new car, but couldn't because of the jeep! And because I need a car so I can work in NEW LONDON, we have to pay over $600 to get it fixed so it passes emissions, and then I can't re-register it because of the insurance not being what you told me it was. THANKS ASS! I'm killing myself to make ends meet, and you do nothing. I would have expected all of this from my mother...not you. You see how I don't talk to her, keep it up, see what happens.
I am livid, and shaking so bad its very difficult to type. I this some kind of test and if so, have I passed yet? I don't expect life to be easy, by any means, but I'd really love not to be on the verge of a fucking breakdown. I really don't like bitching about my life, because I feel that either no one cares or has so much more to complain about than myself, but I need to, or I'm going to do something I regret. I just needed to put it in words, since I am unable to actually talk to anyone (John is amazing, but had to go in to work) and since I don't really have anyone around, this is the best I can do. I've finally stopped feeling light-headed and seeing red spots, so I guess that's a good thing. Hopefully, I'll get the evening to myself.
Karma, whatever I've done to you to deserve all of this, I'm truly, truly sorry. PLEASE forgive me.
I'm so fucking done with all of this bullshit. I've worked over 5 weeks straight working 2 jobs, no day off and I can still pay MY bills, and now we're covering yours? Then I have to cook and clean for you? I'm not your fucking maid, mother or wife. Get off your ass and contribute to this household and/or pay the bills. Did you know that when you get 3 shut off notices, they cut off your power? Yeah, I knew that, but apparently you thought by leaving them in a pile, unopened, they would just pay themselves. Hey guess what asshole... they cut the power! Where the fuck is your money going, and if your paying someone elses bills, maybe you should go fucking live with them! And now you screw me over (once again) with the car? First I don't have the jeep any more because of you, then you get me a pos that should not be on the road, then you let my registration expire because I was "trying" to buy a new car, but couldn't because of the jeep! And because I need a car so I can work in NEW LONDON, we have to pay over $600 to get it fixed so it passes emissions, and then I can't re-register it because of the insurance not being what you told me it was. THANKS ASS! I'm killing myself to make ends meet, and you do nothing. I would have expected all of this from my mother...not you. You see how I don't talk to her, keep it up, see what happens.
I am livid, and shaking so bad its very difficult to type. I this some kind of test and if so, have I passed yet? I don't expect life to be easy, by any means, but I'd really love not to be on the verge of a fucking breakdown. I really don't like bitching about my life, because I feel that either no one cares or has so much more to complain about than myself, but I need to, or I'm going to do something I regret. I just needed to put it in words, since I am unable to actually talk to anyone (John is amazing, but had to go in to work) and since I don't really have anyone around, this is the best I can do. I've finally stopped feeling light-headed and seeing red spots, so I guess that's a good thing. Hopefully, I'll get the evening to myself.
Karma, whatever I've done to you to deserve all of this, I'm truly, truly sorry. PLEASE forgive me.