Mixed feelings
There are moments when I miss Erich very much. I've come across a couple of pictures of him online today when looking into Leather Retreat for this summer.
I miss the good times. I miss spending time with someone who can read my mind.
I guess that I don't want to miss him, because when I do I become very sad.
I must remind myself that I'm not a cold person simply because I am not yet ready to interact with him again.
I have fears that stem from the last time we split up. I fear that we'll discover that all of this has been a mistake and we find ourselves together again...and that then we'll find ourselves together in our typical unhealthy patterns. I guess that this is one reason that I do not want to see him.
I don't know.
This little big girl does not know.
I know that I must be as true to myself as is possible. I know some of the steps to follow in order to do this.
I appreciate my freedom to explore the world and my life and it has been making me very happy to do so.
I miss the good times. I miss spending time with someone who can read my mind.
I guess that I don't want to miss him, because when I do I become very sad.
I must remind myself that I'm not a cold person simply because I am not yet ready to interact with him again.
I have fears that stem from the last time we split up. I fear that we'll discover that all of this has been a mistake and we find ourselves together again...and that then we'll find ourselves together in our typical unhealthy patterns. I guess that this is one reason that I do not want to see him.
I don't know.
This little big girl does not know.
I know that I must be as true to myself as is possible. I know some of the steps to follow in order to do this.
I appreciate my freedom to explore the world and my life and it has been making me very happy to do so.